shelbs22

Hey how are all of you?? I need a huge stress relief. I want to get bombed, drunk beyond belief but somewhere in my brain is telling me not to,that it would just make things worse. But why are writers like Kerouac and Ginsbeg such big drugies and also so creative?? Can it really hurt to get drunk??

I fell so lonely..like I am not really here. I don't know people in a real close way....they are just people I say hi to. I feel so lonely sexually. I am unable to let the people I need to know what my sexual feelings are for them. It is tragic...I have so much sexual desire and no one to share it with. I need...
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Hi I just did Yoga on the banks fof the Mississippi. It was great! My feet sunk way down in the sand, feeling the rocks and roots. Ducks paddled nearby. I wanted to go nude but thought I was just a little to close to the city. But it was cold. Afterwards I sat and meditated and felt all warm and cozy, by myself ,encircled...
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I don't know where else to say this..but I need a fuck really badly. I know I should say it to my girlfriend but I don't need that kind of fuck. I need an exciting, passionate, moving, driven fuck.. one that grinds, that is wet, that pulls and opens into an earthy explosion so that the "Beast with two backs" shakes and spurts like an...
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To All my friends in sg land. I found out last Wedneday that my younger brother died. He was 46 years old. It was suicide. He was a private jet pilot who flew celebrities and CEOs around the country and internationally. HIs wife found him hung in the back yard. Let us all remember to not stuff or not feel how we are feeling. If...
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What am I willing to die for?? What is it that means so much to me that I have to have, to survive,to live?? Is it medication? Food? Shelter? Clothes? Relationships? Health? What goes beyond these, to the central core of my life?? Who or what is it that keeps me from killing myself or dying anyway??

Pleasure I guess.....And I get this most from...
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[YOUTUBE]Joni Mitchell Woodstack(Big Sur) Cal 1969[/YOUTUBE]

Just finished making lunches for homeless people at St. Marks. One of the people there told me that the Jewish Faith extolls making peace not war, especially in your own family....I said that I thought it was "make Love , not war." One of the other woman there said it depends on who your prophet is... John Lennon or Jesus. But I said I bet...
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Hello Turbo kick later today...It is a sunny day here in Minneapolis. I skipped Yoga last night as I've pulled my left hamstring doing the splits...that was about 3 weeks ago...I finally realized I need to stop and let it heal. I'm low on money but what is new.. I want to say something that would sound happy and exciting but it just won't come...Just...
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Just had Yoga class and am feeling pretty good. Still real lonely...My girlfriend likes to keep her distance. Oh well. I am so happy for the friends I have made here. It is a beautiful sunny day in Minneapolis. My mortality is sweetening my life. The sense of death makes my life so much more intersting. Trying to take each as a DAY and live...
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well I found out I have high blood pressure.....Mortality is hard to take sometimes..Yet I glory in imperfections..how else would I go to higher places and look for some relief. As I sink low..I look up to see joy and happiness even harder than before..At least I think I feel this way...

Teusday Sad....Lonely...sick....tired...looking.....for fun