sheisagirl

Last night I took my little brothers to a show. It was my first real night out of my house since I've been back in the US. I sort of got stood up. My friend (well, someone I just started hanging with) was supposed to come and he had all sorts of car trouble...so he says. I was pretty bummed. He's a huge flake. We left a little early and hit up Little Pete's bc Matt and Mike were craving breakfast food.

Tonight should be nice. I'm going to get Jenn from Jersey and take her out to New Harmony (yummy vegan chinese!) for her birthday. I love dining at places where I can eat everything on the menu and she's amazing so it should be an awesome time. I just feel so grown-up now that I go out to semi-formal dinners with friends and am back home by ten pm. I miss being reckless but at the same time I feel so much healthier. It's weird though. I'm more content in general but I kind of miss my extreme emotions. I'm trying to decide if being depressed most of the time is worth those short periods of elation. Maybe I just need to find what makes me happy. Easier said than done..