Hey hey SG land!
A week late but catching up with @MISSY and @RAMBO 's homework! :D As usual in me, too long and loaded with pics!
1- Growing old. As I grow old I feel like I am leaving behind a lot of insecurities and bullshit I used to have and I find myself more comfortable in my own skin, mainly because at last I am building my true self, who I am and who I want to be and not living under someone's expectations or standards.
2- Love. And I mean, true love. When your partner is your best friend and someone you're 100% comfortable with, someone to laugh and cry with, someone who supports you no matter what and who you fully trust. Some one who is proud of you and you admire and are proud of.
3- My friends. As a kid/teen felt quite like an outcast. I did have some friends but I'd share only a tiny % of my thoughts with 'em cause there was always a feeling that something was missing, that our understanding was never complete. Maybe I was just too weird, maybe it was my fault, or that we didnt feel or see the same I dunno. For me it was always an effort. Then when I reached the 20's I was kind of trapped in this relationship where instead of growing I felt I was becoming smaller and smaller. But I kept trying to fit in, to be a "normal" girl. So I met this group of girls I called "friends" for some time. I tried to become the talk about shopping, guys and stereotypical stuff kind of girl. But again there was something wrong. I was just pretending to have fun, and feeling completely fake. I also let every one step on me. I wasnt anywhere near of being confident. But then when I really grew up emotionally I took the enough courage to break with all of this. I embraced my true self and moved from my small town to Barcelona and then's when the magic happened. I met lots of wonderful people -some of them I got to call friends by heart- ,reunited with people from my past to find out how good it felt to have them back in my life, and even made stronger bounds with people from my hometown. I feel loved and worthy and I see how they count on me and I feel understood. We all choose to live our lives outside the norm and give no fucks.
On a side note will say that most of my friends are gay, and not wanting to sound cliché but never been more comfortable than in the queer world.
But There's these 3 people who have earned a place of honour in my life, so here's to them...
Pau, you're such a talented photographer and a fun, pure at heart Human being. I am so happy that we met and instantly clicked and got to call you friend. I've slept with you in the same bed more times than I can count, you feel almost like family to me, helped me with the flat move when I was having such a bad time and managed your self to cheer me up. I know you'll get far away with your art, you're so full of kindness I just can be grateful to have you by my side. (And also thanks for so many moments of insanely funny high nights you crazy bearded bastard!!! do we love our weed!!)
his work...
(you can follow his awesome photography HERE)
Guim from something like high school sweethearts to queers. I feel so so so happy that you're back in my life. If only someone would've told us when we were 16!!! You'll always be the tender boy rolling upon me on my parents bed for laughs but now we have much more memories to add. Friend, neighbour, one of the smartest brilliant people I know, I'll miss you like mad when you go to LND. To put it into your own words "we're friends, confidants, partners in crime for life".
Barbs, possibly my only straight friend, thanks for arriving to my life. Thanks for always being this voice of conscience and the piece that keeps me linked to my home town and roots. I love your will to be be free, your high interest in art, in being always culturally active. I love the way you love and care for your family and the ones around you. Thanks for being my friend and despite being so different at first glance,never judge me or make me feel weird. I know you have this rebellious gal inside of you and I love it when you let her out! I am sure many great things are still to come for you, and I hope I'll still be around to witness.
And you, what are you thankful for??
PS: don't forget my set 'Mulholland' is still in MR. It's been there a month and only 745... It needs waaay more love:( MY SET
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