sheepanda

i think i wanna leave california very soon. i miss not being able to see my boyfriend whenever i want, i miss my puppy leeloo, and i just miss the familiar area that i know. i'm thinking of booking my flght for the end of october, or first week of november. as much as i like the weather here, and the little town i am usually trapped in, i don't see myself lasting until december. ah well.

my unhealthy eating over the weekend has lapsed into the week, and i just don't feel like eating healthy. and i can't seem to get myself to go to the gym. maybe today will be the day i get back into it. i know what i have to do to get back into the eating/working out habit, but i just haven't wanted to do it. i know its only been a few days, but since my bf left, i've just dropped into a sad, depressing state, where i just wanna lay in bed, eat, and not go anywhere. i didn't leave the house yesterday, and haven't left it today either. my nephew has it out for me, and won't give me time to take a shower and get ready so we can leave, and i know if we do, he'll just decide he wants to cry throughout the walk. i'm stressed.

i guess i have nothing good to say today. i wanna go home =(