shawn_tragedy

Hello, everyone. Its been a long time, since i did this last. I gone though alot, pretty much I shouldn't be standing due to all the grief. The love, the lost, disappointment and small gleamers of hope. From the last post, I lost my Mother and my friend/ favorite drummer( who's birthday was yesterday) Then my grand uncle and my great grandmother. And a few childhood friends along the way. I been in a longterm relationship (finally) it lasted 10 months. She was a real bitch to me and treated me, like shit. Her own famliy and friends wonder, how I, put up with it. ( i don't know and it wasn't the sex, trust me) Now, Im pretty much losing it. I gave my heart to my friend who been it love with since day two. And it been rejected and it hurt more then anything I been hit with over the year.( Im not talking mentally) Music is the only thing, that is, there for me, at end of the day. Im still in a band, we gone through tons wannabe bass players. Now, we got the one bassist that fits. Later, we can add another guitairist. We gotten some good show and bad show. I really hope that well, make it soon. Because I can't stand working a regular job, this town, and not having a car, anymore. Also, maybe I can find someone be with on the way. ( be it for a day or a lifetime) Being lonely sux. 6 odd years with nothing will make you crazy.