Today changed a lot about how I view death. Friday morning I got word that a friend had died. She is the daughter of a coworker of mine.
Now, I didn't really have a reaction to it aside from, "Wow, that sucks!" That is, until today. It hit me like a ton of bricks. You see, no one that I've ever known has died before and I'm not sure how to handle it. This is the worst feeling that I've ever had in my life and I know it'll only get worse tomorrow. That's when her funeral is.
I just didn't want to believe it. I was almost overwhelmed with emotion at work today. I'm not sure how I held it together. I came so close to bawling my eyes out on several occasions. I did let loose on the drive home though and I'm exactly holding it in right now either.
I mentioned that my view on death has changed because of this. Before, I didn't think twice about dying. I wasn't afraid of it and had no worries for myself or anyone else facing it. Not that I have/had a death wish or anything. It's a complete 180 now though. I, legitmately, fear death now. I'm scared of what happens after you pass on and it's making this whole situation much harder on me. I've always believed that there is an existance after death. I still believe that. But, like I said, I've never had a friend or family member die.
I suppose that a lot of the people here have dealt with family or friends passing away. How was everyone else able to handle it? And what did you do to soothe the pain? I'd appreciate any help at all because I'm having a really tough time dealing with this.
Now, I didn't really have a reaction to it aside from, "Wow, that sucks!" That is, until today. It hit me like a ton of bricks. You see, no one that I've ever known has died before and I'm not sure how to handle it. This is the worst feeling that I've ever had in my life and I know it'll only get worse tomorrow. That's when her funeral is.
I just didn't want to believe it. I was almost overwhelmed with emotion at work today. I'm not sure how I held it together. I came so close to bawling my eyes out on several occasions. I did let loose on the drive home though and I'm exactly holding it in right now either.
I mentioned that my view on death has changed because of this. Before, I didn't think twice about dying. I wasn't afraid of it and had no worries for myself or anyone else facing it. Not that I have/had a death wish or anything. It's a complete 180 now though. I, legitmately, fear death now. I'm scared of what happens after you pass on and it's making this whole situation much harder on me. I've always believed that there is an existance after death. I still believe that. But, like I said, I've never had a friend or family member die.
I suppose that a lot of the people here have dealt with family or friends passing away. How was everyone else able to handle it? And what did you do to soothe the pain? I'd appreciate any help at all because I'm having a really tough time dealing with this.