shaun0fthedead

Fear; Is fear the driving force that determines our choices on whether to take a risk, or is there something more to this inevitable moment we meet with each day. I think we have so much fear in our lives that goes unacknowledged, that we never see what's coming around the corner. Each day I wake up wondering if I should even bother going to work, if I should even bother remaining in the place I am. Lately all i've thought about has been escape. Past memories have haunted my actions, my thoughts, my dreams, all in all my attention, when concious or not. You can't run from your past, though we all wish we could sometimes, I would just simply prefer to move past them. I've thought about going to a new country and seeing if I could even survive, or if i'd be happier, but this continuous acknowledgement i've had about not being able to run from things has caused me to just believe this want for escape would end in failure.

I am truly lost right now, so lost I fear i'm already gone.