Here's to hoping the next 5 months go quickly, since I know I can't have my way and see him again for my birthday. 
We will do this again, whether he comes up here or I go back down there as plan B. But it's the waiting that stinks.
The rest of this is crossposted from my LJ, because I seriously want advice.
I seriously need to think about things, before I go wasting my money on courses that make me fall asleep for a major that doesn't really interest me.
I honestly hate school in the first place. I hate sitting in a classroom, following a stupid textbook. I can never pay attention to anything because it all bores me out of my mind. And I'm putting up with it because for the last how many years I've felt pressure from everywhere to go to school and get a degree for some 9-5 office "career", when I know I just do. not. fit. that. mold. If I managed to finish everything and get a job, I'd be so miserable within a few months that I'd be forced to quit or something, just to save what's left of my mental health/sanity.
I'm sitting here trying to figure out courses to take in the fall. Stuff I think I can take either is full because they don't offer the course often enough, or it's on some completely inconvenient day and/or at a completely inconvenient campus (I am not taking a 3 1/2 hour Statistics course at 9am on a Friday or Saturday, that's just setting myself up for failure). Pretty much nothing I can take interests me in the first place.
Supposedly you should be able to take something you enjoy and make a career out of it. What happens when it's not what everyone expects you to do?
I'm tempted to take the fall semester off and just work full time, and see if something I enjoy is a possibility, if I can make something work. I'm hesitant to use this as an example, but when Jeph was laid off (yay downsizing), he wanted to turn QC into his work. And it's working out for him.
Is a stable career worth seeing a shrink twice a week because it makes me that miserable? I just can't see myself being happy with anything..."traditional".. The closest possibility, something in the direction of web design, lacks stability anyhow, so how far off is that from saying "screw you, school!" and trying to start up my own business of sorts? I could always take a few of business/finance courses to support me in that, as a non degree-seeking student, if I wanted to seriously do this.
Go on, tell me I'm crazy. Or tell me what I can do to make it work.
We will do this again, whether he comes up here or I go back down there as plan B. But it's the waiting that stinks.
The rest of this is crossposted from my LJ, because I seriously want advice.
I seriously need to think about things, before I go wasting my money on courses that make me fall asleep for a major that doesn't really interest me.
I honestly hate school in the first place. I hate sitting in a classroom, following a stupid textbook. I can never pay attention to anything because it all bores me out of my mind. And I'm putting up with it because for the last how many years I've felt pressure from everywhere to go to school and get a degree for some 9-5 office "career", when I know I just do. not. fit. that. mold. If I managed to finish everything and get a job, I'd be so miserable within a few months that I'd be forced to quit or something, just to save what's left of my mental health/sanity.
I'm sitting here trying to figure out courses to take in the fall. Stuff I think I can take either is full because they don't offer the course often enough, or it's on some completely inconvenient day and/or at a completely inconvenient campus (I am not taking a 3 1/2 hour Statistics course at 9am on a Friday or Saturday, that's just setting myself up for failure). Pretty much nothing I can take interests me in the first place.
Supposedly you should be able to take something you enjoy and make a career out of it. What happens when it's not what everyone expects you to do?
I'm tempted to take the fall semester off and just work full time, and see if something I enjoy is a possibility, if I can make something work. I'm hesitant to use this as an example, but when Jeph was laid off (yay downsizing), he wanted to turn QC into his work. And it's working out for him.
Is a stable career worth seeing a shrink twice a week because it makes me that miserable? I just can't see myself being happy with anything..."traditional".. The closest possibility, something in the direction of web design, lacks stability anyhow, so how far off is that from saying "screw you, school!" and trying to start up my own business of sorts? I could always take a few of business/finance courses to support me in that, as a non degree-seeking student, if I wanted to seriously do this.
Go on, tell me I'm crazy. Or tell me what I can do to make it work.