smoking isnt doing it for me anymore really...
i'm sad i think. but, maybe not.
maybe i should go get a prescription of something.
it isnt going to be good if i am unable to hide it at work.
i'll should be fine. a few more days and it'll go away.
...not that anyone really cares here. i just felt like putting my thoughts into writing in hopes that maybe some one would. i dont really think that i care, but you cant but help to i guess. this is a nekkid girl site so most of the attention of course goes to them. this is a candy store and i'm just another customer. no one takes the time to chat with another shopper. even at the grocery store you avoid almost all eye contact aside from the cashier. since they could possibly give you a deal on something, that, or if the person next to you is attractive you might toss them a smile or a 'hi'. i wouldnt say that i'm tired of how people are because i've been aware of your behaviorisms for a while, and anyway that would sound way to self-loathing/ self-centered. 'why isn't anyone paying attention to me' *said in a whiney, small voice. i have accepted this and moved on. it is just in my nature and all peoples to want recognition for their existance of life. perhaps someday mine will flourish, and at that time i will be settled and when the attention comes i won't want it. thats just how things work. and thats okay, because i'm stong enough now to deal on my own, or with the help of a little prescription of crap that will fuck me over in some other way because that business in america. treatment with a catch.
so, i'm going to shower and maybe let my other personality sexually abuse me, or just shower and then lay in bed and stare at the wall or the glow of lights of miscelaneous electronic things in my room. just waiting for the sand man to come, and if he doesnt, i'll just have to use my own mental strength to 'flick the switch' that is in the back of my head to turn it off for a while.
good night voyeurists.
i'm sad i think. but, maybe not.
maybe i should go get a prescription of something.
it isnt going to be good if i am unable to hide it at work.
i'll should be fine. a few more days and it'll go away.
...not that anyone really cares here. i just felt like putting my thoughts into writing in hopes that maybe some one would. i dont really think that i care, but you cant but help to i guess. this is a nekkid girl site so most of the attention of course goes to them. this is a candy store and i'm just another customer. no one takes the time to chat with another shopper. even at the grocery store you avoid almost all eye contact aside from the cashier. since they could possibly give you a deal on something, that, or if the person next to you is attractive you might toss them a smile or a 'hi'. i wouldnt say that i'm tired of how people are because i've been aware of your behaviorisms for a while, and anyway that would sound way to self-loathing/ self-centered. 'why isn't anyone paying attention to me' *said in a whiney, small voice. i have accepted this and moved on. it is just in my nature and all peoples to want recognition for their existance of life. perhaps someday mine will flourish, and at that time i will be settled and when the attention comes i won't want it. thats just how things work. and thats okay, because i'm stong enough now to deal on my own, or with the help of a little prescription of crap that will fuck me over in some other way because that business in america. treatment with a catch.
so, i'm going to shower and maybe let my other personality sexually abuse me, or just shower and then lay in bed and stare at the wall or the glow of lights of miscelaneous electronic things in my room. just waiting for the sand man to come, and if he doesnt, i'll just have to use my own mental strength to 'flick the switch' that is in the back of my head to turn it off for a while.
good night voyeurists.
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[Edited on Jul 12, 2005 12:28PM]