(The last post on here is screwy. It won't let me delete or edit it in any way. So, here it is in its better form.)
Well, how about when I dive into something, I really DIVE in deep. Head over heels, no looking back, complete submergence within the substance. I become this porous thing and let myself become so filled with the thick, heavy material that I know I won't be quite the same.
This material I am referring to is none other than,
Type O Negative (TON).
Their lyrics are really rocking my soul right now, striking gold as they say.
The lyrics to one song impeticular made me cry upon hearing them for the first time, catching me COMPELTELY off gaurd in the confines of my vehicle.
I was so happy, headin' on over to hang out with a couple of my gal friends on a sunny, Saturday morning, when... I actually pay attention to the words I'm listening to... and burst into tears! Just burst! I NEVER just burst into tears... I either have something I'm sad/angry at and I can feel the tears coming.... but never out of the cold fucking blue like that! I was so surprised, I listened to the whole song again before getting out to walk to the Lori and Melissa's house. Needless to say, it sobered my happy ass right up. However, it was a very good, very rich cry. The song?
Everything Dies.
So fucking where I'm at right now.
One part specifically: "I'm still searching for something, that can't be.. found... but I'm hoping...." The way it is sung is so raw. Cut me it did. :Enter Yoda's, raspy voice:
Most of their music/lyrics are completely morbid. But, I guess thats where I'm at in my life. I'm learning to embrace that whole mortality thing and not shy away with the fear of it like I have been for some time.
Life is Killing Me , doncha' know.
On a side note, I think I'm delving so deeply and quickly into TON because I'm ready for their shit. I wasn't ready for their slower stuff even 6 months ago. I'm a late bloomer on music. I've only really started LOVING (as in with every fiber of my being) music since 2004. Thats AFTER I graduated highschool and right as I turned 20. Yeah, told ya'. LATE.
Before that, I guess I was preoccupied and could never get out. I had no car, so no hope of seeing live shows. No Independence. And right around the age of 19/20, I bought my first car, and with it, my freedom. Boy, it sure tasted sweet.
Some Sarah, history: Which those of you on this "preferred list" may already know... (or not)... :
Metallica awakened me from this gaping vortex that I had allowed myself to fall into. It was a soul opening moment. I had NEVER, repeat, never reacted to music like that before. It jarred and inspired me to take up an instrument, first the guitar... but soon after... THE BASS. Needless to say, I've stuck with that.
Upon going as far deep into the essence of Metallica as I could, I discovered they did this cover of a song by this "leeetle" ol' band called, The Misfits . They were my first real jump into the gritty punk rock music that I always stayed away from. I never understood it. Well, when I discovered, The Misfits I finally got "it". I then grabbed punk music by the balls... and gave it a mighty lick in gratitude. Thank you for your rebellious message. All the bands that came with that explosion: Bad Religion, Against All Authority, Black Flag, Rollins Band, and The Dead Kennedys.
I came to Samhain in all that and saw that Samhain became DANZIG. I quickly dove straight in. DANZIG was the next big stop for me musically. They shoved hardcore bluesy numbers with deep metal riffs, and the ever awesome, incrediably smooth vocals of Glenn Danzig himself. The 5'4 wee mass of a man, was not only .... ungodly, but... ::gasp:: evil! Right up my fucking alley. Oh how I was completely smitten with the asshole. I formed a silly ol crush on the man, thirty years my senior! Gah... its not like I'm actually gonna get a chance to fuck him. ::cries::
Haha
Note to reader: (Saw Danzig in Oct of 2005 at the Hard Rock cafe... had Doyle Von fucking Frankenstein on guitar for original Misfits songs.... lets just say, dream come true. I have a blog about it somewhere in here... far back in the myspace blog records. Look it up if you have nothing better to do with your useless time, human. :evil grin
It took a while for me to move on from DANZIG. Besides Metallica, DANZIG was the only other metal band that I had subjected myself to that I adored. everything about their music screamed for me to listen. However, reaching DANZIG'S end, I got into the later Misfits with Michael Graves and Gotham Road (ever so)briefly. Then, a friend of mine introduced me to ,The Cruxshadows, Wolfsheim , and Jennifer <3 let me onto this awesome band,She Wants Revenge. S.W.R. hit the spot for me at the time. Their lyrics are lusty and if you have a crush (or obsession, heh) you can really identify with it.
Then Bauhaus , Depeche Mode,Pantera and more noteable (but I'm getting tired and too lazy to write them all) bands.... all really within a year. I had heard of most of these bands, but never really listened to them. Pantera's Dimebag Darrell made me quite sad. I just became aware of them after he died. Thats a major reason why I didn't stay on them too long, I knew that if I allowed myself to go "there" I would want to see them live... and as of (then) recently, I would not be able to see them how they should and were seen. I had seen videos of them performing, my favorite being the "Monsters of Rock tour" in 1991 in Moscow.
I have been educating myself on music and whats out there, because unlike everyone else I know my older brother didn't listen to anything but top 40, not Marilyn Manson, NIN (<3 Amber), Metallica (at the time), or any of the other wicked stuff like Swithblade Symphony, Poe, or Rasputina... so I grew up on stuff that was played around me. The Moody Blues, Stevie Nicks,Fleetwood Mack, The Monkees, Meatloaf,Enya, and the oldies station. By 12 I had memorized all the lyrics to songs like "Shakin all over" by the Guess Who, and "American Woman", that would later be popularized by the movie, Austin Power's. If you had played anything made before 1978 and wasn't metal, I was your girl. So, if I may seem completely obsessive about bands that have been around since forever, know that to me and in my world... they have not. Each new addition seriously expands my life two fold and with giants like METALLICA, DANZIG AND TYPE O NEGATIVE.... well their additions expand my soul.... ten fold. A little on the cheesy, gay side? Well, yes. But its so mind toxicingly, true.
I mention all of this :: gestures with arms flinging open:: because nothing has grabbed at me like this, since DANZIG. Peter Steele's deep, cryptlike voice, the VERY audible bass chords, Josh Silver's Melodramatic keys, Kenny Hickey's wailing guitar and Johnny Kelly's primitive, yet strong drumming technique,and the morbid, tainted lyrics are what has sucked me in.
Oh yes... did I mention that the drummer for TON, Johnny and the guitarist, Kenny are both currently in DANZIG? Yes, I knew there was a reason I dug this band.
Plus, like Danzig, the more I read about him and them (TON) the more I like them. Danzig is an asshole... and heh, lookie here, TYPE o Negative are assholes. Yesuh indeed.
* This is all meant as a journal entry to myself to better graph a picture of where I'm at. *
Well, how about when I dive into something, I really DIVE in deep. Head over heels, no looking back, complete submergence within the substance. I become this porous thing and let myself become so filled with the thick, heavy material that I know I won't be quite the same.
This material I am referring to is none other than,
Type O Negative (TON).
Their lyrics are really rocking my soul right now, striking gold as they say.
The lyrics to one song impeticular made me cry upon hearing them for the first time, catching me COMPELTELY off gaurd in the confines of my vehicle.
I was so happy, headin' on over to hang out with a couple of my gal friends on a sunny, Saturday morning, when... I actually pay attention to the words I'm listening to... and burst into tears! Just burst! I NEVER just burst into tears... I either have something I'm sad/angry at and I can feel the tears coming.... but never out of the cold fucking blue like that! I was so surprised, I listened to the whole song again before getting out to walk to the Lori and Melissa's house. Needless to say, it sobered my happy ass right up. However, it was a very good, very rich cry. The song?
Everything Dies.
So fucking where I'm at right now.
One part specifically: "I'm still searching for something, that can't be.. found... but I'm hoping...." The way it is sung is so raw. Cut me it did. :Enter Yoda's, raspy voice:
Most of their music/lyrics are completely morbid. But, I guess thats where I'm at in my life. I'm learning to embrace that whole mortality thing and not shy away with the fear of it like I have been for some time.
Life is Killing Me , doncha' know.
On a side note, I think I'm delving so deeply and quickly into TON because I'm ready for their shit. I wasn't ready for their slower stuff even 6 months ago. I'm a late bloomer on music. I've only really started LOVING (as in with every fiber of my being) music since 2004. Thats AFTER I graduated highschool and right as I turned 20. Yeah, told ya'. LATE.
Before that, I guess I was preoccupied and could never get out. I had no car, so no hope of seeing live shows. No Independence. And right around the age of 19/20, I bought my first car, and with it, my freedom. Boy, it sure tasted sweet.
Some Sarah, history: Which those of you on this "preferred list" may already know... (or not)... :
Metallica awakened me from this gaping vortex that I had allowed myself to fall into. It was a soul opening moment. I had NEVER, repeat, never reacted to music like that before. It jarred and inspired me to take up an instrument, first the guitar... but soon after... THE BASS. Needless to say, I've stuck with that.
Upon going as far deep into the essence of Metallica as I could, I discovered they did this cover of a song by this "leeetle" ol' band called, The Misfits . They were my first real jump into the gritty punk rock music that I always stayed away from. I never understood it. Well, when I discovered, The Misfits I finally got "it". I then grabbed punk music by the balls... and gave it a mighty lick in gratitude. Thank you for your rebellious message. All the bands that came with that explosion: Bad Religion, Against All Authority, Black Flag, Rollins Band, and The Dead Kennedys.
I came to Samhain in all that and saw that Samhain became DANZIG. I quickly dove straight in. DANZIG was the next big stop for me musically. They shoved hardcore bluesy numbers with deep metal riffs, and the ever awesome, incrediably smooth vocals of Glenn Danzig himself. The 5'4 wee mass of a man, was not only .... ungodly, but... ::gasp:: evil! Right up my fucking alley. Oh how I was completely smitten with the asshole. I formed a silly ol crush on the man, thirty years my senior! Gah... its not like I'm actually gonna get a chance to fuck him. ::cries::
Haha
Note to reader: (Saw Danzig in Oct of 2005 at the Hard Rock cafe... had Doyle Von fucking Frankenstein on guitar for original Misfits songs.... lets just say, dream come true. I have a blog about it somewhere in here... far back in the myspace blog records. Look it up if you have nothing better to do with your useless time, human. :evil grin
It took a while for me to move on from DANZIG. Besides Metallica, DANZIG was the only other metal band that I had subjected myself to that I adored. everything about their music screamed for me to listen. However, reaching DANZIG'S end, I got into the later Misfits with Michael Graves and Gotham Road (ever so)briefly. Then, a friend of mine introduced me to ,The Cruxshadows, Wolfsheim , and Jennifer <3 let me onto this awesome band,She Wants Revenge. S.W.R. hit the spot for me at the time. Their lyrics are lusty and if you have a crush (or obsession, heh) you can really identify with it.
Then Bauhaus , Depeche Mode,Pantera and more noteable (but I'm getting tired and too lazy to write them all) bands.... all really within a year. I had heard of most of these bands, but never really listened to them. Pantera's Dimebag Darrell made me quite sad. I just became aware of them after he died. Thats a major reason why I didn't stay on them too long, I knew that if I allowed myself to go "there" I would want to see them live... and as of (then) recently, I would not be able to see them how they should and were seen. I had seen videos of them performing, my favorite being the "Monsters of Rock tour" in 1991 in Moscow.
I have been educating myself on music and whats out there, because unlike everyone else I know my older brother didn't listen to anything but top 40, not Marilyn Manson, NIN (<3 Amber), Metallica (at the time), or any of the other wicked stuff like Swithblade Symphony, Poe, or Rasputina... so I grew up on stuff that was played around me. The Moody Blues, Stevie Nicks,Fleetwood Mack, The Monkees, Meatloaf,Enya, and the oldies station. By 12 I had memorized all the lyrics to songs like "Shakin all over" by the Guess Who, and "American Woman", that would later be popularized by the movie, Austin Power's. If you had played anything made before 1978 and wasn't metal, I was your girl. So, if I may seem completely obsessive about bands that have been around since forever, know that to me and in my world... they have not. Each new addition seriously expands my life two fold and with giants like METALLICA, DANZIG AND TYPE O NEGATIVE.... well their additions expand my soul.... ten fold. A little on the cheesy, gay side? Well, yes. But its so mind toxicingly, true.
I mention all of this :: gestures with arms flinging open:: because nothing has grabbed at me like this, since DANZIG. Peter Steele's deep, cryptlike voice, the VERY audible bass chords, Josh Silver's Melodramatic keys, Kenny Hickey's wailing guitar and Johnny Kelly's primitive, yet strong drumming technique,and the morbid, tainted lyrics are what has sucked me in.
Oh yes... did I mention that the drummer for TON, Johnny and the guitarist, Kenny are both currently in DANZIG? Yes, I knew there was a reason I dug this band.
Plus, like Danzig, the more I read about him and them (TON) the more I like them. Danzig is an asshole... and heh, lookie here, TYPE o Negative are assholes. Yesuh indeed.
* This is all meant as a journal entry to myself to better graph a picture of where I'm at. *
ps i just got back from grindhouse, and while everyone loves planet terror (and it was good no doubt! ), death proof left me so charged and wanting to be some adrenaline fueled bad ass shit kickin mama and i thought to myself who would be the perfect companion on such a journey? the incomprable sarah! loves ya dollface!