sometimes you need to go through the darkest of days in order to appreciate the light.
i am so blessed to have the people i do around me. i have now taken it upon myself to surround myself by people who bring out the best in me and limit my encounters with those who bring out the worst or cannot appreciate me for my worth.
bouncing back from work and doctor appointments, when im not doing either i've been hitting the beach or blazing... sometimes you need to cloud your judgement so your thoughts dont get the best of you.
luckily im done with the hospital visits until mid august. yah its only two weeks but two weeks after the past two months is kind of a the sweetest vacation i could ask for. after that ill be waiting on my second referral before making any other moves. western medicine scares the shit out of me.
guys say girls are crazy. i think it really depends on what type of girls you're keeping company with... I have been spending time with the best ladies a girl could ask for... Peatrie, Voodou & Cheri. i probably would feel so alone/trapped/scared if i didnt have them in my life, especially with where i am right now.
i have so many other people i need to thank for being in my life always resonating sound advice and who support me constantly: cameronstewart, GoGo, Yulia, Jocelyenn & NocturnalHouse... the list could go on but they're not on SG
when i sit back and reflect the only thing that gets me down is my health. knowing there is disease building and boiling inside of me brings an air of uncertainty & discomfort but in the end i have to keep my chin up and be a soldier. i need to be strong and brave.
Did a photoshoot with luckylucky this tuesday, cannot wait to see the pictures once they're done editing.
Work is good, I'm finally making some paper and have been making new friends. Still single but still happy, I think it would be a bit too complicated to bring a lover into the mix right now. I need to be there for myself before I can accept someone else in. It sounds so selfish reading that over but hey, thats where Im at right now. I dont want to start anything I cannot handle or appreciate until I know I can be there 100% and appreciate whoever I'm with fully with an open heart.
i know im awful at posting pictures. life has been hectic. i just need to make the time to upload and photo dump.
xoxo
i am so blessed to have the people i do around me. i have now taken it upon myself to surround myself by people who bring out the best in me and limit my encounters with those who bring out the worst or cannot appreciate me for my worth.
bouncing back from work and doctor appointments, when im not doing either i've been hitting the beach or blazing... sometimes you need to cloud your judgement so your thoughts dont get the best of you.
luckily im done with the hospital visits until mid august. yah its only two weeks but two weeks after the past two months is kind of a the sweetest vacation i could ask for. after that ill be waiting on my second referral before making any other moves. western medicine scares the shit out of me.
guys say girls are crazy. i think it really depends on what type of girls you're keeping company with... I have been spending time with the best ladies a girl could ask for... Peatrie, Voodou & Cheri. i probably would feel so alone/trapped/scared if i didnt have them in my life, especially with where i am right now.
i have so many other people i need to thank for being in my life always resonating sound advice and who support me constantly: cameronstewart, GoGo, Yulia, Jocelyenn & NocturnalHouse... the list could go on but they're not on SG
when i sit back and reflect the only thing that gets me down is my health. knowing there is disease building and boiling inside of me brings an air of uncertainty & discomfort but in the end i have to keep my chin up and be a soldier. i need to be strong and brave.
Did a photoshoot with luckylucky this tuesday, cannot wait to see the pictures once they're done editing.
Work is good, I'm finally making some paper and have been making new friends. Still single but still happy, I think it would be a bit too complicated to bring a lover into the mix right now. I need to be there for myself before I can accept someone else in. It sounds so selfish reading that over but hey, thats where Im at right now. I dont want to start anything I cannot handle or appreciate until I know I can be there 100% and appreciate whoever I'm with fully with an open heart.
i know im awful at posting pictures. life has been hectic. i just need to make the time to upload and photo dump.
xoxo
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It's not selfish to know that you need time for yourself and to take it. It's responsible and brave.