shanti

"til i see you in a dream, singing animals to sleep, by the way... its over without you. im in the way im in the way... im in the way im in the way. lights out til midnight, sleep all day. yeeeaaaaaaaaaah 2x sha la la la..... dark and quiet only the owls are watching only the sky is up and im leaving for a place, from another time. just to be near you, just to be near you... just to be near you. im in the way im in the way..... im in the way 5x"

- emily haines

so thats sums up where my life is now.
moving out of the boys place.
and by boy.

i mean ex boy.

yup yup.
time for the whole "movin on up' to the east side...."

someone is checking out a spot on tuesday morning, fingers ((crossed)) [yet again]

all i gotta say is photo shop is pretty good times....

you cant help people who dont want to help themselves.
even tho it kills you inside
eats you up
& wishes you could shake it off and act like a boy.

pretty sure i need to focus on just me and fuck everyone else right now. seriously.
i have put myself and my life on the back burner for a weak excuse.

there was the complex of me supporting his artistry and him not appreciating mine...
fuck that.

my heart's scorned but chins are up.... the new spot sounds uber cute and ive gotta give a shout out to narley for hooking up the details. instead of painting a spot and decorating with having to negotiate with someone else, ill do what i want however the fuck i want. no more second guessing my nature, my actions and my desires. the world is mine and im hear to seize it.

its time to soar.
my spirit feels like a phoenix ready to rise from the ashes ((once again))


OH AND I KNOW THIS IS ALL SUPER DUPER EARRRRRRRLY BUT LOOKS AS THO THE THIRD SG NIGHT IN CALGARY MIGHT FALL ON YOU KNOW WHO'S BIRRRRRDAY!!!!!


((( me you silly cupcake))