shaneka

So I made the decision not to go to school. It was pushed by one of the heads of admission at Miami International University of Art and Design. Long story short they suck. I may post the email/fax at a later date. I feel a bit relieved and nervous. Now I don't know what to do with myself except to work. I would love to get my own equpiment and do some freelance stuff and even weddings... Cheap too., like $200 to tape and $300 tape and editing. I think that's cheap.

I told wensly too. I told him what happened with US and what happened between Michael and me. He was hell of upset and he had every right to be. He even said he didn't trust me... but still asked me to take him back. He shouldn't take me back. He shouldn't want me back. I'm bad bad bad.

Michael is finally getting his divorce over. Well not finally. He got his loan for the funds and once it's deposited he will pay for the proceedings. I try to deal with this the best I can. Some days I'm all adult and want to just be there for him. Other days, I don't want him to talk to her ever again. Should he want to anyway? I know it's a friendship thing but I'm crazy. SO I think bad thoughts. I think that he will hold on to her child she has with someone else and not want any of his own. I think that he may never want to get married again. I think that I'll be in a relationship 5 years and it won't go anywhere. Nothing for me is EVER simple.