shaneka

Saturday night was super interesting. I went to the movies with wensly and with michael, the married man. I had them both endure each others company because I wanted them to. I wanted to test the strength of my relationship because I dont know it's validity or moreover, to test how nuts I really can be.
While Wensly was gone, it was like i was dating Michael. I went out with him almost every night. Dinner and sometimes a drink or two. Up until the time we first kissed I thought he was singlish. But alas he was married with a wierd fucked up girlfriend. Which is ok. Because he's mostly a friend anyways. A friend that I would never get totally emotionally retarded for. Because I know things in his life are really fucked up. And that I never could make some real difference other than a friend. But it has been nice.
I dont know where I stand in my own relationship. I often get testy and annoyed by the fact that I'm here in Shreveport. For the last couple of weeks I've felt like I should be getting married or something. Mostly because of the situtation of not having money and not being able to pay for insurance and stuff. But I got a new job at Centrytel and for the most part I'm certain that I will be able to move to fulltime. And aside from that I could always work with Michael, he works at some simliar company but the pay is a little less. So as of today I dont want to get married. Not yet. I think that it's no rush. And I am not certain if I want to have a divorced. Some how i think that i'm destined for it anyways.
I want a new tattoo. This is just an emotion that I have had. I think that I will be trying to look for something within the next couple of weeks and by the christmas holidays I will have a new one.