Become an M&M.
Become an MM.
When was the last time you thought to yourself, hey my friends and I should roll around and dance in our undies together, all in sync and shit.. That's what I am missing.
So on Friday night, I went to a Passion Party at a work friends house. It was of course, fun. There were toys and lube being passed around and everyone was talking about sex. Even the person that I work directly under. It was really funny.
Lately I have been dieting and exercising more. Trying to lose a bit of weight. It's coming off really slowly but I'm trying to manage it better than I usually do. Which is lose 20 pounds and stop doing what I was so I can gain it back. I'm not trying to be a supermodel just a better version of me. Who knows, by the time I get to fit back into my favorite clothing, it will be back in style
. But I may be too old to wear it.
I talked to my mom a bit ago and she told me that I needed to move home. Back to New Orleans. I want to but it's not as easy as one would think. MOstly because I am one of those people who have to plan things, have a job or funds to last without a job for a bit and the other is that I have a boyfriend who sounds like he wants to go but of course can't pin down when or how. That's him, MR procrastinator.
Two weeks ago, we signed the paperwork on the house from my mom. Which was good because I was very stressed out. But now I am wanting to use the equity in the house to buy another duplex or multiplex property in NOLA so I can have a place to return to and go without a job longer. I'm tossing around ideas for the future, like a bed and breakfast, motel/hotel, or a whole wedding shop that includes female formal wear as well as video/photo production. I don't want to work for someone all of the time and I would like to extend good fortune to my family and friends if they would like to be part of it.
I had an awful migraine on last Monday. It started out like a small harmless headache and eased away. Then I thought I was going blind, which was more scary because the previous week I had broken a blood vessel in my eye by sneezing or something. But it wasn't blindness, it was a migraine. This part of the migraine I had never experienced. I had to go home. Rather I had to drive to Michael's work and then have him drive me home.
My mind is all random. I know that I can not own a nice place here in Fort Lauderdale. Also, i want my kids to grow up with my family. Not to mention my mom has always offered to help with the daycare, as being the daycare. Which would of course be beneficial to me in numerous ways. But I kind of feel selfish because I would be expecting that some of the old friendships and family relationships will be there, but now I am fearing that it won't be. I think that I isolated myself, not on purpose, but effectively enough to tear the strings of some of the relationships. A bit of it is with my friends but some of it, family. My mom will always be there but I think that because of my internal anger with my cousins and uncle, I have disregarded them a bit. I guess it's just fear that I will move for the support that I am lacking here and find out that it's not their either.
What I wish for right now is to spend a weekend with mom, gen(and justin), lyric, robert (even though he is an annoying little brother), and michael. We'd be stuffing our faces with homemade Pho and finishing with a cup of coffee, only to take naps in between the Pho feast. I have to visit soon but I have been waiting because my mom doesn't know if she is living in mississippi or louisiana and Michael has no form of photo ID, so he can't get on a plane or drive around here while I am away. But soon though, because I keep crying a lot about not being able to hug everyone.
Enough of the worrying....Back to the cleaning and ignoring the 'big game'.
Become an MM.
When was the last time you thought to yourself, hey my friends and I should roll around and dance in our undies together, all in sync and shit.. That's what I am missing.
So on Friday night, I went to a Passion Party at a work friends house. It was of course, fun. There were toys and lube being passed around and everyone was talking about sex. Even the person that I work directly under. It was really funny.
Lately I have been dieting and exercising more. Trying to lose a bit of weight. It's coming off really slowly but I'm trying to manage it better than I usually do. Which is lose 20 pounds and stop doing what I was so I can gain it back. I'm not trying to be a supermodel just a better version of me. Who knows, by the time I get to fit back into my favorite clothing, it will be back in style
. But I may be too old to wear it. I talked to my mom a bit ago and she told me that I needed to move home. Back to New Orleans. I want to but it's not as easy as one would think. MOstly because I am one of those people who have to plan things, have a job or funds to last without a job for a bit and the other is that I have a boyfriend who sounds like he wants to go but of course can't pin down when or how. That's him, MR procrastinator.
Two weeks ago, we signed the paperwork on the house from my mom. Which was good because I was very stressed out. But now I am wanting to use the equity in the house to buy another duplex or multiplex property in NOLA so I can have a place to return to and go without a job longer. I'm tossing around ideas for the future, like a bed and breakfast, motel/hotel, or a whole wedding shop that includes female formal wear as well as video/photo production. I don't want to work for someone all of the time and I would like to extend good fortune to my family and friends if they would like to be part of it.
I had an awful migraine on last Monday. It started out like a small harmless headache and eased away. Then I thought I was going blind, which was more scary because the previous week I had broken a blood vessel in my eye by sneezing or something. But it wasn't blindness, it was a migraine. This part of the migraine I had never experienced. I had to go home. Rather I had to drive to Michael's work and then have him drive me home.
My mind is all random. I know that I can not own a nice place here in Fort Lauderdale. Also, i want my kids to grow up with my family. Not to mention my mom has always offered to help with the daycare, as being the daycare. Which would of course be beneficial to me in numerous ways. But I kind of feel selfish because I would be expecting that some of the old friendships and family relationships will be there, but now I am fearing that it won't be. I think that I isolated myself, not on purpose, but effectively enough to tear the strings of some of the relationships. A bit of it is with my friends but some of it, family. My mom will always be there but I think that because of my internal anger with my cousins and uncle, I have disregarded them a bit. I guess it's just fear that I will move for the support that I am lacking here and find out that it's not their either.
What I wish for right now is to spend a weekend with mom, gen(and justin), lyric, robert (even though he is an annoying little brother), and michael. We'd be stuffing our faces with homemade Pho and finishing with a cup of coffee, only to take naps in between the Pho feast. I have to visit soon but I have been waiting because my mom doesn't know if she is living in mississippi or louisiana and Michael has no form of photo ID, so he can't get on a plane or drive around here while I am away. But soon though, because I keep crying a lot about not being able to hug everyone.
Enough of the worrying....Back to the cleaning and ignoring the 'big game'.
there's one more week for your chance to win it