shaneka

So i'm OVER the last post.

Today I have been trying to edit that fucking wedding. I'm really trying hard, but I am unable to maintain focus. And honestly that is on EVERYTHING. I really do think that I have adult ADD.

So my ankles hurt as do my legs. My fingers are all crampy which have made it hard to do the things I like. And my clothes hardly fit. I gained back the 10+ pounds I had lost a couple of months ago and I am recommitting myself to myself. I can't let my weight get out of hand because I know that I will have health problems in the future. Not just because I feel unattractive, which, I don't feel that way all the time, only when I am focusing on my weight. I honestly think that I am really attractive, regardless of my size but know that it is my weight that will kill me if I get diabetes, high blood pressure, etc. And I do like being active.

Anyways. Back to live in the really real world....