Sunday Jul 23, 2006

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So i'm OVER the last post.

Today I have been trying to edit that fucking wedding. I'm really trying hard, but I am unable to maintain focus. And honestly that is on EVERYTHING. I really do think that I have adult ADD.

So my ankles hurt as do my legs. My fingers are all crampy which have made it hard to do the things I like. And my clothes hardly fit. I gained back the 10+ pounds I had lost a couple of months ago and I am recommitting myself to myself. I can't let my weight get out of hand because I know that I will have health problems in the future. Not just because I feel unattractive, which, I don't feel that way all the time, only when I am focusing on my weight. I honestly think that I am really attractive, regardless of my size but know that it is my weight that will kill me if I get diabetes, high blood pressure, etc. And I do like being active.

Anyways. Back to live in the really real world....
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genevieve:
the weight thing sucks most of all in life. I think I would tend to be a happy person if I didnt have to constantly be aware of what and how much I was eating. And you are...very beautiful regardless of weight. thats something I've always hated about you!



I feel really terrible about your birthday. I can admit it...i'm way to self absorbed nowadays. its the plight of my position!

anyway. i love you! and miss you dearly. Maybe i forgot because I'm partially mad at yo u for not living right next door...

cdt21:
I hadn't thought of Benadryl thanks for the tip kiss I hope you lose that crampy feeling real quick - I try to balance my actual knitting with looking at patterns etc. to allow my hands some downtime and not get problems later on with arthritis etc.

oh and Happy Belated Birthday kiss biggrin

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