shanana

I stopped my meds on my own.

So now I wonder. do I take them get ride of the depression? Along with losing the depression I lose everything, happiness, joy, anger. every emotion goes with the depression and it leaves me just NUMB.

I hate being numb so I stop taking them then I get like I am now. Sad, tired, irritated.

I catch myself being short with everyone, cutting them off, not wanting them to be in my office for to long. I want to be left alone just doing my paperwork and having no contact with anyone.

I know it is because I stopped my meds. But I have to wonder which one is worse, the depression comes and goes, the numbness stays.