shanana

My life is pretty good my work is always stressful, but I love it and wouldnt have it any other way, my relationship with my baby is rocken. I have no complaints there. My social life is good and getting better since I started meeting people here in SG world.

My only issue in life is that I have this one person in my past that I regretfully hurt, and have apologize profusely for my mistake, to no avail.

When do you stop trying? I have extended my hand to and apologized over and over for over a year now and this person is still angry with me. The part that really gets me is we were actually ok for a little while and then all of a sudden, the person is angry with me again and I dont know what I have done, and they wont tell me. They wont even respond when I send an e-mail asking what happened.

I know that forgiveness is a two way street, I know that I am not responsible for making that person forgive me, but when do you stop trying? I have been trying to make things right but like I said to no avail. Should I just give up? When should you give up and just say fuck it? Im not that type of person; I dont like having someone mad at me or hate me. And I think this person does hate me.

Sorry, I seem to be rambling now, it just really bothers me that there seems to be no end to this. Maybe the end is just this; that this person will always be mad at me, always hate me for my mistake regardless of what I do. I dont know? Should I not care? Should I shut all emotions down that connect to that person? Can one bad situation filter in to everything in my life?

Anyway, work is going crazy, as always on a Monday, have a great day everyone.

Edit:

One more thing and then I will let this go for now. I have no ill will or hate for this person. I want the best for them, I just don't want the hate on their side, I just want it to all be ok, all forgiven, I am not asking for it to be the way it was, or even to be 'good friends' just no ill will or hate. Is that to much to ask?