shamelessly

2 more day's of work, then freedom.
Freedom to go buy pants, have a few drinks and hopefully do nothing stupid.
Though, i am not sure if i can avoid trouble for three day's, or if for that matter i want too.
Seems about time i get out of the house, and do something for myself.
Maybe go for dinner, go dancing, go walk around if it's sunny or not.

My new cellphone is making me incredibly happy.

I am fresh with the need to do good for myself, and not crashing back in to former habits.
The uncertainty of my life has me held back, and petrified.
All the things i am interested in experiencing, and i have sat back without motion.

Find a way to rope in my thoughts, and emotions that keep leading me astray.
Keep pulling me back into my own shadows.

So the point, is i want to move forward, i am not sure how, but i am.

*shudders*

"I'm about to break, but there are no arms."