So she comes this weekend, and as much as i am excited to see her, to be near her.
I know that, i will end up feeling vulnerable and all used up. I think i am blinded by what it could be, instead of seeing the truth.
I am very tired, of people wanting to use me for companionship, for sex, for love.
Tired of feeling dried up, and having everything inside sucked up out of me by these people who are devoid of human emotion.
Yet i am drawn to these extreme woman, with issues they chose to live in without dealing with.
But the beauty is in the moment. So i will see next weekend through, and i will either be heartbroken and alone once again, or i will have something to hold close to in the middle of the night when i forget what is out there.
I know that, i will end up feeling vulnerable and all used up. I think i am blinded by what it could be, instead of seeing the truth.
I am very tired, of people wanting to use me for companionship, for sex, for love.
Tired of feeling dried up, and having everything inside sucked up out of me by these people who are devoid of human emotion.
Yet i am drawn to these extreme woman, with issues they chose to live in without dealing with.
But the beauty is in the moment. So i will see next weekend through, and i will either be heartbroken and alone once again, or i will have something to hold close to in the middle of the night when i forget what is out there.
alvynaumagumma:
*hugs* i'm often drawn to extreme people ... it usually ends badly ... i hope this goes well for you - nothing's worse than being heartbroken
