i went to massachusetts for the holiday and got to spend time with my best friends in the world, including mistakesmade. i stayed on a friend's couch all week- smoking butts and drinking wine and catching up. it was lovely. i am back to virginia now and i miss it all terribly already.
last night i cried myself to sleep. sometimes no matter how hard i try to keep it together, i fall into a place where i hate myself for a little while. i know it will pass, but during that time i am completely miserable. today is better. slowly adjusting to being back here. reminding myself that this place is not permenant and that there are good things here too. like friends. i do love my friends. i am going to see dearest mnislahi tonight and that always cheers me up. a little wine, a little jackass, a hot friend= good for the soul.
last night i cried myself to sleep. sometimes no matter how hard i try to keep it together, i fall into a place where i hate myself for a little while. i know it will pass, but during that time i am completely miserable. today is better. slowly adjusting to being back here. reminding myself that this place is not permenant and that there are good things here too. like friends. i do love my friends. i am going to see dearest mnislahi tonight and that always cheers me up. a little wine, a little jackass, a hot friend= good for the soul.
and thanks.. i rather enjoy the pix myself.
i feel like this also, a lot. it's hard to keep it together. i feel like i'm a facade that's cracking completely on the inside. it's hard, when i'm trying to keep it together for my boy right now cause that's what he needs from me. i wish you the best, lady. you're a beautiful woman both inside and out... i would be honoured to be able to drink wine and shed tears with you someday.