Dream:
Im in an auditorium at a high school. Everything is dark. I know Im late for an acting practice (strange since I havent acted for 17 years) I know where the practice is but each time I go through a door to get there Im on the other side of the school. This doesnt frustrate me, its as though Ive come to expect it, I know each door actually takes me farther but I also know that it will eventually loop around and get me where Im going. I never got there. . . This doesnt bother me.
Life:
Apparently I have social anxiety disorder. This doesnt come as news to me. Ive been withdrawing from everything over the past 12 years. When I do go out or get in large groups (I speak publicly a lot) Ive become a pro at hiding it. Id rather get rid of it than hide it especially now that we have a kid on the way. . . Found out last week its a girl. I dont want to be that dad who never takes his children out because he hates leaving the house. These pills are supposed to work. . . Well see.
The new tattoo is all healed up and looks beautiful. If you need ink and you live within three hours of St. Louis its worth the ride. Zedasex is a fuckin master. I cant get it finished until after the New Year because, it turns out, theres this capitalist holiday you celebrate by buying people shit. . . (I LOVE AMERICA!!!) Only greedy bastards like us could bend the birth of Jesus (or Hanukah or Kwanzaa or fill in the blank) and turn it into a two month long shopping spree.
From now on I need to go by the Alias "REASON" some people from work heard the name bad reason and found my web site. . . They started asking me shit about it and the links so I had to pull the site and change my alias because a google search could get my employers and work mates a little closer to me than I'd rather them get. So "Hi, I'm Reason. It's good to meet you. . ."
Im in an auditorium at a high school. Everything is dark. I know Im late for an acting practice (strange since I havent acted for 17 years) I know where the practice is but each time I go through a door to get there Im on the other side of the school. This doesnt frustrate me, its as though Ive come to expect it, I know each door actually takes me farther but I also know that it will eventually loop around and get me where Im going. I never got there. . . This doesnt bother me.
Life:
Apparently I have social anxiety disorder. This doesnt come as news to me. Ive been withdrawing from everything over the past 12 years. When I do go out or get in large groups (I speak publicly a lot) Ive become a pro at hiding it. Id rather get rid of it than hide it especially now that we have a kid on the way. . . Found out last week its a girl. I dont want to be that dad who never takes his children out because he hates leaving the house. These pills are supposed to work. . . Well see.
The new tattoo is all healed up and looks beautiful. If you need ink and you live within three hours of St. Louis its worth the ride. Zedasex is a fuckin master. I cant get it finished until after the New Year because, it turns out, theres this capitalist holiday you celebrate by buying people shit. . . (I LOVE AMERICA!!!) Only greedy bastards like us could bend the birth of Jesus (or Hanukah or Kwanzaa or fill in the blank) and turn it into a two month long shopping spree.
From now on I need to go by the Alias "REASON" some people from work heard the name bad reason and found my web site. . . They started asking me shit about it and the links so I had to pull the site and change my alias because a google search could get my employers and work mates a little closer to me than I'd rather them get. So "Hi, I'm Reason. It's good to meet you. . ."
Check the dream I had. I dreamed I was going out with an ex-girlfriend's best friend
and in real life it gets freaky
After more than a year of no type of contact I get an email from the ex talking about how wonderful her life is AND... wait for it... HER NEW BOYFRIEND!!!
Shit on me just what I want to hear right now.
<B> NOT!!!! </B>
I'm a retail jockey, ya' know, and I get panic attacks once in a while at work when there are people everywhere and too much noise and all sorts of craziness going on.