shaka

A bunch of my students told me I've been acting younger. It's funny that they should tell me this now because I've been feeling younger for the past month. It all started with a dye job. After a shitty day a friend of mine tells me she's goin to her hairdresser to get her hair dyed, as a joke she says I should get my hair done too. . . I decided What the fuck. My wife went ape shit when I got home. She's too serious all of the time. I am too. About six years ago I became someone else. Not someone bad, just someone different. I began making compromises and wrote them off as growing up. I go to bed at 9 and get up at 5 even though I don't need to be at work 'till 8. I haven't been to a club in six years. I've been to one show in the past 4 years (Dance Hall Crashers). My entire wardrobe was long-sleeve button-downs and khakis but not because my job required it, but because I thought that it was what I'm supposed to do. When I came home with those fuckin highlights I woke up the next day and just felt younger. I looked so different I decided to go out and get new clothes, not just a new outfit. . . six new outfits. Color's I normally wouldn't be caught dead in in materials you can't throw in your own fuckin washing machine(I'm impressed. . . Apple's text edit spell check knows that my "fuckin" is missing a "g"). I started going to parties again, they're different now than they were when I was 25 and single. My wife doesn't want anything to do with it though. She's cool with me going out on my own, she'd rather stay home and read or watch "Murder She Wrote". I can't say I mind it either. I love being around my wife but when we're around other people she really is a stick in the mud. She doesn't care about other peoples lives. It's hard to hold a conversation with someone who doesn't ask you questions or doesn't care to answer yours. I don't see this as a character flaw. She really doesn't need a social aspect to her life. She genuinely seems complete with our little home, her job and our three cats. I thought I was complete to but a dye job reminded me of what I left behind . . . Now I'm going back to get it.