shaddix

Hello hawt SG ppl

So I feel like I havent been on here in forever...Iv cut myself out of a lot of ppls lives the past 2 weeks...I've spend a lot of time being completely hammered and crying...I met this boy through my best friend and he seemed really nice and whatever and I stayed at his place a couple of times and everything seems to be alright and then he had this huge jungle party and was begging me to come...so I got off work early and went because i thought he wanted to spend the night with me...I was def wrong...we had made plans for me to stay the night and then be hung over the next day and I would go watch his hockey game the following night...WELL...he ended up ditching me for another girl and to make my night soooo much better 2 of his friends decided they wanted to have a threesome with me and locked me in his room...sooo not cool.... so I left the party balling my eyes out and my best friend had already gone home and was passed out so I was banging on her door for a good 10 minutes till she woke up...so I cried for awhile and my AMAZING friend eric came and got me (he was an hour away) and took me home and we cuddled and he made me feel better...so then a couple days later I found out he stopped talking to me because I wouldnt sleep with him...which i dont get...guys dont like you if you dont put out and then if you do put out they think your a slut(well in his world..hes a jock..so not my type)...so I thought all was over and done with...THEN I ended up not being able to go to school all week because I ran out of money....lame...then I got a speeding ticket..lol just my luck..so then thursday rolls around and I always go to my best friends and we go to her school bar...so I got trashed and I was calling my friend and this guy comes up to me and starts telling me that his friends thinks im really hawt and I def dont care...what fucking ever..so then he starts calling me a bitch and saying I have too much attitude so I told him i was going to spit in his face if he didnt leave me alone..so he left then i saw him later and he told me to fuck myself...like seriously come on..just because i dont give a shit about your friends doesnt mean you have to be rude...ugh but this hole week I've been trashed like every night because everything just feel apart all at the same time...ugh..theres prb WAY more that happened but I just cant remember....O yes I remember something very fucked...So i was reading fynx's blog and I ended up having a REALLY fucked up dream as well...my friend had commited suicide 3 years ago(this is real life) and in my dream he had come back for only 3 days to see all his friends and he could only stay in my basement and couldnt see his family...it scared the shit out of me...I woke up crying...I never want to dream like that ever again...Well Im off to work...

Heres some lovely pictures from that party I was telling you about (the happy times)





Hugs and Kisses

-Shaddix







This is the jerk that ditched me...No tattoos...What was I thinking?!