Well I have tried to bite my tongue / chew my fingers as long as possible to keep from going on this rant but... I am at my wit's end and need to offload. Some of you may read this and think I'm an asshole, and there are a lot of times I think and feel the same thing.
So it has been a long few months with a large number of stressors, have sold a house and bought a new one, the move happens in just over a month. I should be ecstatic as the new place is great, but all I can focus on is the move, how much work its going to be and how I know its all going to end up on my lap.
Where did that last thought come from? Well this is where the majority of my rant comes in. My partner, she's truly my other half, has burned my trust and made me feel miserable. She has battled with depression for years, but recently she gave into a battle with alcohol. She was drinking behind my back hiding it from me...hard to do considering she's tiny and the amount of booze she was putting away. I asked her to not hide it, I would help her abstain by quitting myself. I cleaned the house of booze, didn't help at all. I tried to be the risk mitigator, we will reduce the amounts, just drink when we're together...that didn't work either. I am so frustrated....I deal with my own battles with demons (PTSD) and this is just dredging up piles of shit I had dealt with and was over with but it has made a return.
I don't know if there is any real point to this rant, or if it makes a point at all. I just needed to blow off some steam I guess.
I hope everyone is having a great weekend, thanks to this community allowing me to dive back in and relax and enjoy the groups, and people. I have missed it!