got into an arguement with people about self-esteem. they were a bunch of guys bitching about how girls always complain that they're fat, ugly, etc when they really aren't.
since i really didn't want to get into it with them. i found it insanely hypocritical that ever time we go out i have to hear about the ugly chick who hit on them or the fat chick that so and so banged. here's my 2 cents.
i was overweight starting at age 10. never like humongo, but enough to be the fat girl amongst my friends. i never had a boyfriend until i was 18, but apparently my personality made up for my extra pounds. i never had a lack of romantic interests, but i was never happy with me. as a result, no matter what the guy said, deep down i would never be happy. kinda like when your mom says 'oh honey you look beautiful.' it doesn't count. its your mom. she has to say that stuff.
i've since shed 50lbs, and feel 10 times better about myself. but there are still times when things don't work out, or someone ignores me, or whatever, and i think to myself 'oh must be because i'm fat.' but in reality it never had anything to do with that.
it's a constant healing process. and with the media and junk nowadays, being yourself isn't easy. its like going into a cold swimming pool. i'm about knee deep. and it's going to take me a little bit longer before i can forget how cold i am and just take the plunge.
whoa afterschool special alert. i suddenly feel the need to watch a kevin smith movie to regain my balance
since i really didn't want to get into it with them. i found it insanely hypocritical that ever time we go out i have to hear about the ugly chick who hit on them or the fat chick that so and so banged. here's my 2 cents.
i was overweight starting at age 10. never like humongo, but enough to be the fat girl amongst my friends. i never had a boyfriend until i was 18, but apparently my personality made up for my extra pounds. i never had a lack of romantic interests, but i was never happy with me. as a result, no matter what the guy said, deep down i would never be happy. kinda like when your mom says 'oh honey you look beautiful.' it doesn't count. its your mom. she has to say that stuff.
i've since shed 50lbs, and feel 10 times better about myself. but there are still times when things don't work out, or someone ignores me, or whatever, and i think to myself 'oh must be because i'm fat.' but in reality it never had anything to do with that.
it's a constant healing process. and with the media and junk nowadays, being yourself isn't easy. its like going into a cold swimming pool. i'm about knee deep. and it's going to take me a little bit longer before i can forget how cold i am and just take the plunge.
whoa afterschool special alert. i suddenly feel the need to watch a kevin smith movie to regain my balance
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That's awesome you've got tickets for Mayer, he just came by here at the end off last year on the solo tour, so he probably won't be back for a few more months, though he always comes to Nashville and Knoxville, I've seen him three times so far, all good stuff. I haven't joined the Local 83 yet, but I probably will soon.
and here's my 2 bits, I like your afterschool special pics, so just remember, a schooner is a sail boat
In re t your above journal, your frightfully hot, with an absolutly unbelievable smile, so don't think otherwise.