sexdwarf

I am one cold piece of shit.

Its strange, I think I am a good person, better than 90% or so people out there; its odd though, the feeling of being so good and atthe same time equally bad.

Its difficult, people see you as good, then get a glimpse of the bad, and can't comprehend it, so I become all bad to them.

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I had this dream about Snow and Siren last night (actually, 1:00 am this morning) during one of my quick weed naps. They were in their SGB practice outfits (according to Siren's recent pics). It was perfection, I don't fully recall the whole thing but I remember we didn't really do anything. We were just laying around and Super Bug - Sneaker Pimps was playing....
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For the first time in a while I can say, "feelin fine."

*Bonus points to all who identify the quote*

I thought I'd be hitting up both the San Fran SGB show at The Great American Music Hall, and the La one at The Echo, but as it turns out it will probably be ony the LA show. Rats, broiled again.

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*Note to self*
Update soon with something, anything, positive


I always say I can't cry and until two nights ago it was true. I thought I'd be happy when I finally cried again, nope

Now I know that whenever I want to cry, all I have to do is make my Mom cry.

I feel like the biggest shit in the world, although...
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-I'm probably going to fail Illustration, but that's ok cause the teacher is a stupid. Y'know how some people may be great accountants, but wouldn't be great accounting techers? Its like that.

-I randomly met someone one Monday who's met Sean, I feel like I've been blessed or something. Go ahead, you can touch me.

-Also on Monday, had fun, drunk and high and Denny's;...
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i'm sad





also, i can't stress enough how much adult swim sucks fri-sun.





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Change. Usually if someone says, "I need a change" people around will respond, "Then change."

I wish it were that easy, in my experience, of which 100% of it is with myself, when change is an issue, it isn't due to a lack of effort on my part.

ahh fuck . . .

I really don't see tomorrow for me, just, nothing.

I don't think...
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I think I would probably do most anything for Snow, hmm odd.

Hmm, scabbing is fun. Some people who come in are idiots though.

I really wish there were a theater around me that had midnight showings of Heavy Metal.

Life, existence, its . . . there.

Playing now: Pete Yorn - Come Back Home

I now see know just how much I value Halloween last year with Richard, and the times we'd hotbox my van, the days before Dan would smoke out. I value them now. I wish I'd network more, everywhere. Specially this site though, the best I can do though is lament...
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WTF is this, Ruby, Nala; and ofcourse I find both out while high. Its getting cold now, and its getting dark, and I wish I had the coat in Snow's doorbell set, with her in it ofcourse. And Ruby and Nala would be there too, and Siren and Elektra and everyone. The whole scene would be lit by candle light. The snow wouls begin to...
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I WANT RUBY!! and and fuck. I don't know what else, I don't know why, but I have this ominous feeling of forboding, like with Ruby going off my list is the beginning of my final run at SG. I don't know why, but it sucks

Halloween today and I have no costume, am not going to Hollywood, am not going to the party in...
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And when you started to sing you spoke with broken speech, that I could not understand
And then you grabbed me tightly

I won't let go, I won't let go
Even if you say so, oh no
I've tried and tried with no results
I won't let go, I won't let go

Anybody who is anti-Dntel/Postal Service/Death Cab for Cutie is no friend of anyone....
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