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freakin a. mission cancelled. and i was all worked up to be strong. lol

I'll be moving into my new place this weekend. i hate moving, but I want a bigger bedroom

I'm going to Ikea to shop around for desks and shelves this weekend. I'm also getting my nose pierced. Hell, I'll probably change my hair too. hope everyone has a great friday!

well, I guess I wasn't over him. lol


He's going on a mission, and I won't be able to have contact with him for 30-45 days. I think this will be good, tho.

today feels like it will be a good day. I take my car in to the shop finally!! Hopefully they can get it done in one day. I hate depending on other people for rides, and my insurance didn't have rental coverage. next time I spring for the extra!

I miss talking to Rich, but he should be home tomorrow!! then we can talk everyday...
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ok, so I have been wondering....

Do guys tell every girl that they are the best at giving head? I kept saying "Really?" Hell, I hadn't given a guy a bj in 7 years! Maybe all that porn paid off???

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woot! I got some!!! AND I don't feel bad about it! It had been awhile, so I pretty much needed it. I can feel it today tho......ahhhhhh

well, I'm housesitting, and it's so nice to be able to have quiet! The house is almost done, and I will be able to move in this week!! I'm so excited, tho the owner put the most hideous (sp?) carpet in my bedroom. I'm sure I will be able to cope. I feel pretty good today, and want to spend some time out in the...
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well, it's almost friday, thank god! I'm so tired and I'm looking forward to sleeping in.

I feel like things are different. I know that no matter what happens, I will be ok. This is very comforting to me. If he's in my life when he gets back, ok, if he isn't it won't kill me. I know it will hurt for a little while,...
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ok, back from hanging with the fam, it was hectic as always, but I got to go to the Seattle Aquarium! I had so much fun!! I took a ton of pictures on my sister-in-laws camera so when she uploads them I'll post some. Hope everyone had a great weekend!!!

wow, how can I feel strong all day, and one 5 minute conversation send me back into turmoil? If he loved he as much as he said he did, why isn't he hurting as much as I am? Is he just not saying he is? This is the worst feeling. We talked and neither one of us said "i love you". I hope this gets...
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well. hmmm. ok, so we aren't fighting anymore, but things aren't the same. I have to set boundaries, and start taking care of my emotional health. I think I found my self respect!!