sethy

So I have been doing some thinking, and I realized I need another girl friend, I have been without since my last one cheated on me back in janurary.

Since then I havnt really let too many females get close to me for fear of being hurt again. I let one female get close to me this whole time, and although I refuse to believe im in lvoe with her for fear of the feelings I dont want to feel, I know Im twitterpated (if you dont know twitterpated then go watch babmi!)

Problem is that girl and I can never be.

So what I need is another female in my life, someone to take my mind off all other females, someone I can just be happy being around and not worrying, and... and...

Well, problem is that in walling my self off from females in general for almost half a year has left me no options, no one I can really think of to fill this spot in my life.

And living where I live right now without transportation there isnt really an active night life where I can meet females.

So here I am for first time in months really wanting someone to be close to, to share my time with, to kiss, to hold, and to enjoy being with, and there are no real prospects.

damnit

hopefully this longing will fade soon.
or Ill find someone.

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my next journal entry shouldnt have this boring emotion crap, sound fair?