seth0067

Well, we're back to working 12 hour days - but its good. I feel like I'm pushing myself and improving my skillz, so it is all good. and that's the truth.

Otherwise, huge greatness to see Cash, just wish I had more energy AFTER the 12 hour day.

Other than that, its nice to see someone you like, well really, have a bit of a crush on completely hook up in a major long term type way. Yeah yeah jealousy, etc - but first, jealousy is the biggest bullshit emotion (I know as I'm a jealous retard sometimes, right hon?). Next, the crush wasn't a complete shattered priceless china suicide - really just "impressed with" plus a vague sexual attraction - so when you see someone you *that* happy *that* quickly with someone so impressive... well its pretty cool. It may not have been that great a thing if it happened over here on my end, but with him it looks completely perfect... fuck yeah. Im not rationalizing either. I pretty sure.

I miss Kara and Volks because sometimes with me, being out the neighborhood is like being in freakin' Poland (for fuck's sake). I miss Simone because she was like having a second party in with my inner dialogue. I miss Roxy because we coulda done way more dancing than we actually did. I miss Adore because with her I can almost see what having a younger sister would be like.

I miss, I miss, I miss. Goddamn.. Most of you.