Since my roommate is moving out, there was going to be a lot of white space in the room. So, I figured out what I am going to do with it. I have a goal this week of putting up one picture of all the SG girls up on my walls>>.(Current count=29)
In other news, I am feeling kind of bad about something. I've been kinda of seeing this girl for a few months. I say kinda cause shes kinda of strange. Everyweekend for the past month for the past month I would share breakfest with her every saturday or sunday. The strange part is that, with the exception of the first weekend, about four months ago, she would never say a single word to me during the time. Finally, last week I got nerved out and asked her why she never says anything. She said it was because she was shy and that actually led to more conversation. Ive been on three dates with her. But, hers the thing I feel bad about. I havent called or talked to her in three days. BTW, I am pretty sure that right now I am the ONLY person on campus who talks to her. I am pretty sure she's interested in me but I have some serious doubts about her. I identify with the reasons she does these things 'cause I was faced with a similar problem and similar choices in my past but ... (I wont say what cause I never share other people's personal detials). Shes pretty much decided that the world and the people in it are too painful to deal with so she just not going to deal with them, at all. Shes a really nice girl and we share many common interests and when I am with her we have a lot of fun but, I am not sure I want a relationship with someone who very well might put that on as a requirement of the relationship. I have other options, not many, but other options nonetheless that if they work out could be a lot more personally fulfilling. On the other hand, if I dont try SOMETHING with her this nice girl will stay dead to the world, exactly how she wants it and slowly but surely this nice girl will fill with bitterness and hate 'cause man(or woman!) was never meant to be totally alone. I am not sure if I could forgive myself for letting someone go like THAT. Torn by indecision, I am deer caught in the lights of an oncoming truck.
In other news, I am feeling kind of bad about something. I've been kinda of seeing this girl for a few months. I say kinda cause shes kinda of strange. Everyweekend for the past month for the past month I would share breakfest with her every saturday or sunday. The strange part is that, with the exception of the first weekend, about four months ago, she would never say a single word to me during the time. Finally, last week I got nerved out and asked her why she never says anything. She said it was because she was shy and that actually led to more conversation. Ive been on three dates with her. But, hers the thing I feel bad about. I havent called or talked to her in three days. BTW, I am pretty sure that right now I am the ONLY person on campus who talks to her. I am pretty sure she's interested in me but I have some serious doubts about her. I identify with the reasons she does these things 'cause I was faced with a similar problem and similar choices in my past but ... (I wont say what cause I never share other people's personal detials). Shes pretty much decided that the world and the people in it are too painful to deal with so she just not going to deal with them, at all. Shes a really nice girl and we share many common interests and when I am with her we have a lot of fun but, I am not sure I want a relationship with someone who very well might put that on as a requirement of the relationship. I have other options, not many, but other options nonetheless that if they work out could be a lot more personally fulfilling. On the other hand, if I dont try SOMETHING with her this nice girl will stay dead to the world, exactly how she wants it and slowly but surely this nice girl will fill with bitterness and hate 'cause man(or woman!) was never meant to be totally alone. I am not sure if I could forgive myself for letting someone go like THAT. Torn by indecision, I am deer caught in the lights of an oncoming truck.