I guess it's apparent that I'm not doing what I intended to do here, which is do a daily update and try and help me sort things out and get on the right path. Truth is, I feel so disinterested in anything lately. I desperately want to go for a jog/walk in the morning to get my day started on the right foot, but poor...
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Sunday I did absolutely nothing. Just rested. Monday I helped my pops out with some work on the rooftop of the 'family owned property'. It's being rented out to a clinic that performs births. If you saw a hospital here, you'd know why people pay to go to a clinic to give birth. Yesterday (TUesday) I went out for a beer with my pops. Lot...
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The past ten months haven't really been that eventful for me in terms of psychological drama. I've been out more times, done more things with people, been doing really. There are so many beautiful women here that it's kinda hard for me to crush on anyone. Thing is, there's a lot more superficiality as well. I live in a town of 40k, so a lot...
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It's so scarry/weird looking at that entry. I've been on here for more than a week now and have been wanting to address this, but I get to lazy or overwhelmed with things to say, that I just give in and don't type anything. The events that were to follow that entry were I went gambling, lost, popped in more pills, slept for 24 hrs...
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hello again dear old blog. I overdosed, felt everything inside me collapsing and yet I was not going to sleep, so I called 911..not cause I wanted to live, but because of the pain. So it looks like I'm going to do the same thing again. I will keep trying this until I get it right. I do not deserve to live alone and if...
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heartbaker:
Everyone deserves to be loved. Maybe you just haven't found the right person. You shouldn't give up. If you tried and didn't succeed, that is a sign that you should stick around. I know you don't know me. But I'm here if you need to talk. Please don't give up
I found out yesterday that this girl wont be in work for a couple of weeks because she hurt her leg. I wish her a speedy recovery wherever she may be. So that being said, my thoughts focused on another girl who I've known for a while now. The past couple of weeks we've been hanging out a lot and she is really starting to...
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Finally made my way back here and I'm so glad to be back. Will post more later!