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yesterday, I got an email from some website asking me to join them. It said that this lesbian chic I was obsessed with a couple years ago was asking me to join. I'm very certain that someone either hacked into her email list or she doesn't use that email anymore. But it raised an important issue that i've kinda been dabbing on and off with...
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ok, so, I went to the gym twice today! At noon for half an hour and tonight for fourty minutes. I am NOT going to make a big deal out of going twice to the gym anymore.I did, and it totally exhausted me to the point where I didn't go workout for like three weeks. If I do, great, if not, great. So, I started...
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I had thos whole passage typed away here and then I hit some button and it was all erased away So I'll try and replicate this, either way, today's message from One Day At A Time was about self pity. What I had typed earlier, before it got deleted, was that I heard this so many times but I wasn't not sure if I quite...
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For some of us, the past is such a hard thing to let go of. Letting go does not mean that you forget it, things that have happened are permanant, its just that they're permanent in the past and nothing can change that. I can chose to live in the past and dream of how I'd love to have the opportunity to change the past,...
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looks like I'm gonna be a slave to the smokes today. I weigh 100.5 and what this means is I have a change to do 98.5. I hope I do it. It's weird cause lately it seems as though I only do 40 mins or so and get the same results vs. one hour. I still want to do an hour because maybe it's hotter...
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My gambling took over my entire body a year ago. It still haunts me reading my last post before I tried to overdose. See, I didn't go gambling to win money, I did it as an excuse to try and commit suicide. I wanted to die because I saw no hope, no reason to continue living. I still have no reason to to continue living,...
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my biggest flaw is that I care too much into others opinons and not much of my own. When I do care about my opinion, it's my way or get out of the way. This shit is in me and I haven't been able to get it out. I suppose it's important to keep trying, but when you deal with an acceptable form of drugs,...
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It's around 10pm right now. I'm in an emotional state of chaos, well, more down and curious I guess. I have to figure out what it is that I want out of life. Not what I like, but what it is that I want to accomplish and how to get there. Right now, I just don't know. Right now I feel as though I don't...
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woke up 7:04am, immediately smoked...drank some water, weighed 100.8.smoked again...checked out the internet...sigh...I think I'm going to go and get some breakfast and perhaps see this blonde chic although I don't understand whats going to come out of this cause I know it will be in vain. I am definitely looking forward to the gym however.. Need to keep it active today, at least go...
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ok, well, I've determined that my desire to stop smoking is not strong enough. Meaning in the morning that is, and I just so happen to believe that once you start your day off with a cig, it just means that you'll keep doing it. I think the only way to go is cold turkey, I just can't imagine myself gradually cutting it down. So...
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