sertraline

I'm at an internet cafe again, only have one euro for a couple hours. I bought some cigarettes to last me a couple days but doesn't look like I"ll be out for a while. The greek army doesn't want to pay me...technically speaking, that's false, it's just that I'll have to wait until the 23rd or so which means I will cost my parents more money. For the first time, I missed my job, we were marching and I was miserable cause I just had the feeling that my higher ranks were teasing us since most of these people are kids. I stick out like a sore thumb amongst this group. I'm slightly homesick but more frustrated that I seem to forget that in the states I was miserable most of the time. Why do I only remember my gambling and good memories? Why can't I have memories of how I wanted to die from absolute boredom and no one being around? I'm stuck here for at least three weeks before I can fly back home for a ten day stay. I dunno, I just feel blah...