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I get extremely anxious when I don'[t have money. Not having money is something I'm very familiar with and I know that this situation makes me go to desperate and extreme measures. The end result is how much do I care and usually self hurt. I have made some significant progress in my journey to whatever goals it was that I set for myself, but...
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As with all groups that arrive in Cyprus, the newest group eats all the shit. What's really struck a bad vibe in me though is that I'm currently experiencing things that I should have experienced in my first month here. The difficulties with personalities has seemed to wear down though and I'm sort of at ease again. I was actually in somewhat of a rhythm...
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back in cyprus and in a new base for three weeks for training. I fear that this place will become a nightmare. Already I've been knocked down by two idiots horsing around. Two hours after we arrived, we were sent to clean toilets and our room. We have no locker, fuckheads in charge and I seriously think about killing someone. Of course, I'm just venting,...
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Thoughts that can occur randomly in my head any given five seconds:
1)what does it feel like to die
2)I'd love to eat her out
3)try and find purpose for your life
4)will I ever be able to quit smoking
5)boxing

I am sort of excited and nervous about the prospect of moving to Germany. I'm going to try and find employment here but I...
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I can only assume, since I've never been anyone else lol, that we all have things we struggle with. I struggle with social skills, addiction, and laziness. Perhaps they're all intertwined with one another and perhaps they're all seperate, don't know don't care either way, all I can do is recognize them as a problem and try to come up with a solution. Every day...
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On countless occasions, this place feels like hell. Constant screaming, hypocrisy, horsing around, and there ain't a damn thing I can do about it or whine about it because the fact is, this is much better than doing military time in Greece. I still haven't been paid and I don't think I will get paid until March because I am leaving for Greece next week...
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Trying to find some type of spiritual or psychological help while in the military is somewhat impossible. I'm surrounded by kids in their late teens/early twenties and a lot of riff-raff. I'm not a riff-raff type of person. I don't have anything against these guys for acting the way they do, but it can get annoying sometimes, especially when the group leader has shouted three...
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God is something I'm completely confused about. I have a stance but I don't know exactly what it is. I've began reading my one day at a time book again (FYI, I placed a bet two days ago) and I came across god again. How am I supposed to move on or learn or whatever with this subject? Since I'm in the Army doing things...
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I'm at an internet cafe again, only have one euro for a couple hours. I bought some cigarettes to last me a couple days but doesn't look like I"ll be out for a while. The greek army doesn't want to pay me...technically speaking, that's false, it's just that I'll have to wait until the 23rd or so which means I will cost my parents more...
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I'm officially in the greek military and all frustrations that I was aware of regarding Greeks living in Greece have come to fruition. I joined on October 29, went through two weeks of initiation before being let go for ten days because I choose to go to Cyprus. It's extremely unorganized, full of youth, and lots of bureaucracy. The people who organize our group are...
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I'm only doing this because I want to document whats going on the past week but I really don't feel like it. Mentally I feel very unmotivated and lazy but physically I have been going to the gym, in fact I went twice a day two days and hopefully today. I'm at 94.5 now, I did manage to make it down to 93.8 the other...
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I'm currently in a crisis. Well, not really, in fact nothing near a crisis, but I'm making it into one. I haven't worked out in over two weeks, and am constantly sleeping and watching movies or doing something unproductive. I have managed to go out a couple of times but not like I should. What I'm supposed to be doing is expanding my social network...
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