serpentworship

cauldron two <> DAMNATION.


[ Now playing in Demon Tribe Hollow... Good Noose (Fox Trot) (DTH track 5,502 of 56,999) by Frankie Stein And His Ghouls from Ghoul Music ]


I think the reason I like computers so much is that they make me feel in control of more than just the computer. I feel more in control of my life in general, and I suppose in a way, I am. I mean, theres the balancing of the bank accounts, managing the love life (of which I have none), cultivating friendships and keeping in touch, and making groovy, yet-curiously-evil music.

And determining which escort service Ill use that evening to sate my extraordinary loneliness.

(Just kidding. Im not lonely.)


Did you know doctors take an oath that dictates they mustnt harm people? Its not a given. (Ill wager that one came into being after Mengele.)


I want a dog.


Oh, and heres something I wrote today on Facey-Facebook as a kind of response to a friends brief treatise regarding the discovery of the self:

For me, the law of the conservation of energy dictates that the universe didn't have a beginning. Nor will it have an ending. Beginnings and endings are human conceptions, as far as I'm concerned, not scientific ones. I draw the distinction because I firmly believe that our physical laws govern not only life on this planet, but life on all planets, should such life exist. Because while I don't trust humanity as a whole, I have absolute trust in the best of us -- that our greatest minds have drawn the correct conclusions about the nature of the universe.

So, at my very core, I'm not a spiritual person. All of my convictions lie with science. I suppose this makes me seem like a shallow person to most, but I don't think it does at all. Scientific thought is a world of wonder to me, and my absolute belief in it means that do not have the privilege to explain away things as simply matters of faith.

I don't necessarily think this fundamentally contradicts your main argument in The Quest For Self, but I do think it perhaps flies in the face of universal oneness. (I know, my words, not yours.) The universe is a concrete thing. The only way I'm truly a part of it is via subatomic particles. The seemingly otherwordly behavior of some of these particles will ultimately be determined to be predictable and sensible via the scientific method.

I believe, for example, that though we do have some control over the physical structure of our brains, that control has a limit. Some people, in other words, are predisposed to act how they do because of the inherent chemical makeup of their brains.

I think I need to stop here. I really do like what you wrote. I just don't have the spiritual faith that you do. Then again, perhaps I've completely misinterpreted what you've written.

Also, I fully admit that my lack of spirituality may someday prove to be the end of me. I can point to plenty of examples that support my convictions, but a life without faith is very challenging, and hard on the nerves. And I already have an anxiety disorder, thank you very much.

[ Now playing in Demon Tribe Hollow... Its Hard To Be A Saint In The City (DTH track 5,555 of 56,999) by David Bowie from The Platinum Collection (Disc II) ]