hell no! there's nothing wrong with that. Being entertained by other people's suffering is one of the great gifts of God - you should be thankful for that.
Yeah...my doggie is gone. I miss her terribly, yet life is so different now I can't imagine having her. I went through a real unstable time for a bit....somewhat of a surprise. But she was the one thing that got my constant daily unconditional love....
Thanks for the condolences.