serious_sabotage's SuicideGirls Blog

So, I feel better today......much better. Upside to being heart-broken?? 10 lbs weight loss!!
I've also come to realize that my heart belongs to me. I'm the one who lets it break or encourages it to let people in. Today is a new day.................

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addison:

oooo your trying out?? let me know if you need any help or anything.

Feb 7, 2007

streaml1ned:

Awesome then. If you want to check out the movie's website, click here. Also, you can check out my film instructor's myspace here to watch trailers. I will post more details later on when I get them so keep on the lookout.

Feb 7, 2007

I feel empty. Like a cardboard box. One that's been flattened and thrown away like so much trash. In between the sobs that spasm through my body, I can feel my heart giving up. And when I see you or hear your voice it feels like a soda can collasping under the pressure of a thousand oceans. I wish it would stop beating. I wish....
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Well, it's official. It's over. It hurts and I'm angry as hell but it needed to be done. It's my fault because I allowed myself to settle for less than what I deserve. It's okay though. I know I'll do better the next go round. I'll have much higher expectations the next time.

sky:

aw im sorry

this is to do with a relationship? the best thing to do when things come to an end is to take the time to get to know yourself without that person. You might find you like yourself better with out them anyway

Jan 20, 2007

Okay. So just the other day I'm standing behind the Customer Service desk when this really old woman comes up holding one of our plastic bags. I step forward and I ask her if there is anything I can help her with. She proceeds to pull a package of immitation crab meat out of her bag. She pointedly turns it around so that I can...
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syal:

hehe...that just makes me smile.

Jan 18, 2007

mojitsu:

lol thats hilarious

Jan 19, 2007

Anything Me.

I wish I could erase you
deface you,
Close these eyes at the fade of day

I would like so much to hate you
immitate you,
Close these eyes and see you blown away

by anything.....

I don't know if I can leave here
without fear,
Closing my eyes and touching my veins

I'm sure it soon will be clear
another fallen hot...
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syal:

eventually you will grow the thickest skin that no one can penetrate. that is when you feel true bliss and emptyness in an all in one shop.

Jan 17, 2007

elly:

Jan 17, 2007

Hmmmmmmmmmmmm.....................

It's weird. I can't seem to follow my own advice. Tomorrow, unfortunately- is my birthday. Today Keith took me shopping. Not bad for a birthday gift. Too easy though. Anyone who has known me for an hour could tell you that I love to shop. But who could tell you what my favorite flower is? My favorite band? Food?? Tomorrow will be a day...
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sky:

happy birthday x

Jan 14, 2007

addison:

I loved that comment

well fucking said!!! its funny because he called me today and said he was sorry, had this long conversation about all the shit thats been going down with him and our situation. Im such a nice person that i forgave him and everything is cool now. I just hate drama and would just love to put all that behind me. Trust me though, he will NEVER be a close friend....ever. and yes!!! the easy button....if only in real life.

Jan 16, 2007

Another piece of myself.........................

Born With Complications

If you look past the smile
you'll see the pain on her face
No one cared enough to take the time
to put her in her place
And she wont point the finger
she shoulders all the blame
It's no ones fault but her own
ever living inside the shame
Every morning is a reminder
of decimation to...
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addison:

aww thanks for writing that to me. thats an awesome quote!

Jan 14, 2007

elly:

Well, regardless, it sounds good. Keep posting!

Jan 14, 2007

The Easiest Hard Decision

We're both acting like it's too far gone

Although I know your phone is turned on

And we keep pushing each other away

I swear I don't want to let this go

But leaving is the only thing I know

And I'm fighting the urge to pray

Your prescence has a medicinal use

Strangely a form of emotional abuse

And it...
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lostjohny:

lyrics or something else? anyway, welcome to SGSC!

Jan 7, 2007

Good morning all!! Thought I'd lay a little something down before heading to work. There is a little game going on and because I bore easily, I played. It's a game of TAG. So the way it works is that when TAGGED, you admit 10 things about yourself that most people don't know. A little game of honesty if you will. After doing so, you...
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addison:

Tag!

1. Im afraid of going anywhere alone. Im scared that something will happen and i wont know how to deal with it being by myself.

2. I have anxiety. Sometimes i will have panic attacks if too much is going on for me to handle.

3. I dont like to be in large crowds or around people i dont know. that will also cause an attack.

4. Im afraid of balloons popping.

5. Im scared of spiders.

6. The only thing that grosses me out really is the blood from packaged meat.

7. I dont like bugs.

8. I have this weird thing that if i see a fuzzy or lint on someone i have to get it off them or it will bother me.

9. I used to really be into punk. Mohawk, zebra pants, doc martins. that whole deal.

10. Im actually a really shy person.

ps. we live real close