OK, I'm freaked out now. I haven't really let the surgery enter my mind since I've been so busy with dad being sick. I've been reading up on the ablation. Nothing I don't already know but I'm starting to freak out a little. I can't remember if I'm going to be knocked out or not. I remember the doc saying local only but my friend had this 3 years ago and said they knocked her out. So now I'm wondering.
Before I freaked out about being put under (I never have before) I was freaking out about having a shot in the cervix. OH FUCK ME ROYALLY! I'm not even afraid of needles. I just know that feeling of them scrapping the cervix during pap and pelvic and even that sucks a bit even if only for a split second.
A
Needle
In
My
Cervix
FUCK! Sounds like a GG Allin song for fucks sake.
What else blows about this? Nothing to drink after midnight! Oh, that's a hard one. I drink about 3 litres of water during the course of the night. I'm starting now hoping I'll be so over water by bedtime I won't want any.
Man you guys, I'm so not a big puss. I'm kinda freaked out that I'm freaked out actually. Damn.
On the dad tip, he's doing so good right now. Being pumped full of steriods, antibiotics, and breathing treatments earlier last week at the hospital has helped him greatly. He has followed my direct orders and today was the first day he went out. He actually stayed home since he's been back from hospital until church today. He actually let himself continue to recouperate. I'm proud of his stubborn old ass for listening to me.
I just wonder why they can't treat him more agressively with streriods but a friend of mine whose mom died of emphysema told me that they cause the sugar to go sky high and longterm on steroids isn't a good idea. Sucks cuz they sure have opened him up like he hasn't been in a long time. Hell, he's breathing like he was 2 years ago right now and it sucks that it's temporary.
I dreamed all night last night that he died on me. I left for work @ 6 a.m. went in his room and stood there. Normally his door opening wakes him right up. It didn't this time. Freaked me out. Finally, with his 2 dogs looking about me like, "Hey, we're freakin' sleepin' in here." I said, "Dude." He woke and said, "HUH!" Told him I was making sure he was still alive cuz I dreamed all night that he croaked. He laughed at me. I seriously don't know what I'll do without my dad. Seriously.
Anywho, thanks for the well wished Phemey and Lilli! And the rest of you who are thinking about me. As you can tell I'm a BIT FREAKED OUT RIGHT NOW!
Oh, and if you don't hear from me by tomorrow evening I might have died. But let's hope not. I am rather freaked out tho. I think I've said that. 
Before I freaked out about being put under (I never have before) I was freaking out about having a shot in the cervix. OH FUCK ME ROYALLY! I'm not even afraid of needles. I just know that feeling of them scrapping the cervix during pap and pelvic and even that sucks a bit even if only for a split second.
A
Needle
In
My
Cervix
FUCK! Sounds like a GG Allin song for fucks sake.
What else blows about this? Nothing to drink after midnight! Oh, that's a hard one. I drink about 3 litres of water during the course of the night. I'm starting now hoping I'll be so over water by bedtime I won't want any.
Man you guys, I'm so not a big puss. I'm kinda freaked out that I'm freaked out actually. Damn.
On the dad tip, he's doing so good right now. Being pumped full of steriods, antibiotics, and breathing treatments earlier last week at the hospital has helped him greatly. He has followed my direct orders and today was the first day he went out. He actually stayed home since he's been back from hospital until church today. He actually let himself continue to recouperate. I'm proud of his stubborn old ass for listening to me.
I just wonder why they can't treat him more agressively with streriods but a friend of mine whose mom died of emphysema told me that they cause the sugar to go sky high and longterm on steroids isn't a good idea. Sucks cuz they sure have opened him up like he hasn't been in a long time. Hell, he's breathing like he was 2 years ago right now and it sucks that it's temporary.
I dreamed all night last night that he died on me. I left for work @ 6 a.m. went in his room and stood there. Normally his door opening wakes him right up. It didn't this time. Freaked me out. Finally, with his 2 dogs looking about me like, "Hey, we're freakin' sleepin' in here." I said, "Dude." He woke and said, "HUH!" Told him I was making sure he was still alive cuz I dreamed all night that he croaked. He laughed at me. I seriously don't know what I'll do without my dad. Seriously.
Anywho, thanks for the well wished Phemey and Lilli! And the rest of you who are thinking about me. As you can tell I'm a BIT FREAKED OUT RIGHT NOW!
Oh, and if you don't hear from me by tomorrow evening I might have died.
But let's hope not. I am rather freaked out tho. I think I've said that. VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
aldremech:
I thought the same way about my cancer surgery, then I got there and they stuck 9 syringes full of glowing green radioactive shit into my back, which made me think more 
But through it all I did fine, just as you will hun. Try to take it all in stride and know that you are going to be fine, and you have lots of people who are thinking of you 
But through it all I did fine, just as you will hun. Try to take it all in stride and know that you are going to be fine, and you have lots of people who are thinking of you 
dufsmash13:
calm yourself, you're going to be fine. glad to hear your Dad is doing better. i've been through some stuff with both my parents, i know how that feels. take care. 