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So, I've been busy, actually more like lazy, or perhaps both. Which is why I haven't updated in a uber-time.

My head's just been feeling muddled. I really like Scott, but sometimes I catch myself being uncharacteristically not me, being a bit mean and stuff. And it bothers me that I do it, I don't even realize til after the fact. Jill and I were brainstorming last night, and she thinks it's due to the crudiness of the previous situation with Derek.

I like Scott a lot. But our mutual friend Reg (I've known Reg longer, but he hangs out with Reg more now), and Reg has become an alcoholic and sleeps around alot. And Scott has had a problem with alcohol before, and he doesn't drink when he's around me, or even all that often, but every time he and Reg get together, they drink, and Scott has said that he isn't proud of some of the people he's slept with, because he's the sort of person who wants to find one person and be with them for life, but when he was friends with Reg (before me) was when he got sucked into Reg's lifestyle, and started sleeping around and stuff. Am I being a complete dope when I get a bit worried and anxious, and upset when Reg takes him away and gets him drunk all the time? I just don't want Reg encouraging him to do something dumb, which I wouldn't put past Reg. He doesn't exactly support our relationship. I found out that Reg has a bet with someone that we won't last a month. That's not something you do when you want the best for your friends, and wish for them to be happy. And Reg does get bitchy at me, because I'm taking his precious Scottie away from drinking with him all the time.

*sighs* Even when things aren't difficult, they're still complicated.

In other news, this is my new school line-up for fall! Most of the classes I wanted to take were already full, because I was superlate in registering (again), but I decided to get those pesky required courses out of the way. So here's my line-up!

First Term:
-Theory Extended 1 (for my music minor)
-Fundamentals of Research 1 ( but it's required for psychology)
- Fundamentals Of Research Lab 1 (cue more )
- Adolescent Psychology
- Orchestra (again, that lovely music stuff!)

Second Term:
- Theory Extended 2 (oh so original)
- Fundamentals of Research 2 (I think you can see where this is going)
- Fundamentals Of Research Lab 2 (oy vey)
- Orchestra (I'm so predictable)
- Philosophical Problems in Religion (Ooh, busting out of the mould! OMG. It's for my double minor, Philosophy)

And I may take a guitar course at Community College. This year is going to be soooooooo interesting, I swear. ( )

Anyhow, in all honesty though, life is pretty good, I just think waaaaay too much at times, and am a worrywart. If you know a cure, I'd love to hear it.

I'll try not to be so lazy, and actually update sooner this time. Between doing nothing, and spending time with Scott, I haven't spent that much time on the computer recently. All that will change. I miss my computer, and the people I talk to on it. *lovelovelove*

Anyhow, I should go and pretend to do something productive. Love you all, talk to you soon!

*kisses*
~Gen