serendipitous

It's too late for me to be awake. Too much crap in my head. The brain never quits which is why I think I have always had insomniac tendencies.

So, the bed buddy is not coming into town this weekend. I'm sad, I'm bummed, etc... I guess his older sister has a drug problem and he's feeling down and I hate it when people are down.. it makes me feel down. Too much empathy in this soul o' mine! And quite frankly I'm not sure I want to feel anything for him because we can never go further than where we are/were headed. The up side is that he was coming downfor a 2 day seminar the company I work for is having so at least I won't have to play bad girl/good employee while trying to remain composed.

So, I pick up my dog from my brother's after work and I was almost home (less than 2 miles away) and I get pulled over for speeding. He didn't give me a ticket but he was an ass "Do you have an extra $183 dollars this month because that's what it would have cost you." And some crack about do I like getting tickets. I probably should have shut my mouth but I haven't had a ticket in years (4 to be exact because he told me that). When I was maybe 22, I got probably 8 tickets in 6 months so I'm doing pretty fucking good. I shouldn't be complaining since he didn't ticket me and he sure as hell could have but he was an ass. A little power gets some people off so much.

Song I can't get enough of today... Muse's "Time is Running Out"

I think I'm drowning
asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
that you've created

you're something beautiful
a contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction

you will be the death of me
yeah, you will be the death of me

bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

our time is running out
and our time is running out
you can't push it underground
you can't stop it screaming out

I wanted freedom
but I'm restricted
I tried to give you up
but I'm addicted

Too good right now.... The lyrics are a tad darker than the song sounds but it's still an awesome song.

Another good thing about the doc not coming down.... my best friend from high school is gong to be at Disney for Gay Days and now I will be free to see him all of Friday night! I don't have to be at our seminar til 11:30 on Saturday. I was going to have to try to squeeze seeing him between airport drop off time on Sunday night (I think it was 7) and a 10am meeting on Monday. I should probably call him and let him know that though, huh? Good idea Alright.... I am really off to read and the bed. Yet another little sleep night.