serafyn

The guys are on tehir way home. first group got in last night and i'm on my way to see them this morning. this is the best news i've had in months. it really is horrible turning on your computer each morning, and being gripped by fear that the first thing you'll see is that someone who is like family to you has been killed or injured.

maybe life will get back to normal now. i'm also really excited to get my puppy. he is too young to bring home right now but i should be able to pick him up in september. i've decided to go with the shiba inu because they are very independant and i think it will be more like living with a roomate that a pet. i had never heard of this breed before but when i saw pictures i instantly wanted one.

i've also kinda been torn about my decisions with work. i am still muylling over the idea of trying out for the searech and rescue. i think it would be a good change of pace to be able to start helping people. i thihnk that would be much more rewarding.

my ears are still messed up and i am greatly saddened by this because my greatest joy in life is listening to my music. right now everything sounds hollow and it really bothers me. i want to hear the full rich sounds and no matter what i play my music through it sounds like its coming through headphones or those little portable speakers. i had my hearing tested and they said my hearing was excellent and the problem is apparently in my mind. i guess my mind remebers the trauma and as a way of letting me know my body remembers it and replicates the injury as a way of telling me there is something wrong. it should go away eventually which i am happy about. the mind is very fascinating, i never realized how intertwined the mind and body are.