septmaster

I saw my next door neighbor's daughter the other day for the first time in . . . 5 years? something like that. She used to come over to our house to get babysat when mom & dad were busy at work or on a vacation. Cute kid, but just a little girl or ten or so.

She didn't look ten or so when I saw her this time. I did a movie double take, then tried to figure out if the girl in front of me was the same person. This girl was . . . developed.

So, naturally, I had to re-introduce myself, because she wouldn't necessarily recognize me either. The smile she gave me was truly heart-melting. I calculate that she is just under the legal mark, go figure, although honestly, dating a childhood friend like that, especially so many years my junior, would seem a bit to uncomfortable.

She was impressive 'though.



The cute girl who smiles at me when I'm eating lunch has introduced herself. She seems sweet, but a bit . . . what word am I thinking of . . .

maybe unimpressive? that sounds harsh. Maybe she was just nervous and overeager. Maybe that's just my ego talking. definetly a sweetheart 'though.

What should I do? Should I hold out for someone who really interests me or try for someone who most likely won't mind putting her arms around me now? I hate being fucking lonely.

I suppose that if I am not really interested that I would only end up hurting her in the end. I guess that means I'm still waiting.