Have one thing that i hate in myself - it is low concentration. And in these days i hate it to much!

I can concentrate only if i'm in a in a depressed mood (unexpected good side of depression, lol), but in the over moods i can't! On work i dream about rest, in rest i think about work, in games i dream about self-education , in education process - about books, or porn. And always i feeling guilty for wasting time, whatever i do.

Today I spend most of the time at home, and I could do something useful, or vice versa, enjoy games or books - but no matter what I do, I feel that I am not doing what I should.
I hate it.
And I don’t know what to do with it.
But i'm trying to do something.