It's completely ridiculous how easily my mom can make me want to cry.
I can make my own god damn decisions. If she wants to know where I am all the time, she should let me go where I want to go. Simple as that. I'm a god damn adult. Not some eleven year old, out of her depth. I know exactly what I'm doing and exactly what the consequences are. The difference between us is that I can accept them, and all she does is freak out. Never does anything, because she can't deal with the consequences. Never goes out. Never has a drink. Never buys anything that aren't completely necessary. Never takes time for herself. I don't want to be miserable. I don't want to be trapped in my life like a prisoner. Life should be like a picnic in the park, not like a day at the office.
My dad has a job offer in Miami. They'd pay him twice what he is making annually, as well as pay for up to 30 grand a year for each child's college tuition. My brother is at NYU. I'm about to be in school, too. AND they'd pay for him to commute from here to there, and vice versa. In this economy, you'd have to be retarded to not take that deal. But my mom doesn't want him to take it. She says it's because my brother is just starting high school, and my dad wouldn't be around enough. He's never here anyway, because he takes any excuse he can get to stay away from her dumb ass. He'd have more time with us if he took the job anyway, one week here, one week there., he'd have a whole week with nothing to do but spend time with his kids. This is a no-lose situation. But I think my mom knows that if my dad takes the job, eventually he's going to grow a pair and leave her.
I am so not happy right now.
I can make my own god damn decisions. If she wants to know where I am all the time, she should let me go where I want to go. Simple as that. I'm a god damn adult. Not some eleven year old, out of her depth. I know exactly what I'm doing and exactly what the consequences are. The difference between us is that I can accept them, and all she does is freak out. Never does anything, because she can't deal with the consequences. Never goes out. Never has a drink. Never buys anything that aren't completely necessary. Never takes time for herself. I don't want to be miserable. I don't want to be trapped in my life like a prisoner. Life should be like a picnic in the park, not like a day at the office.
My dad has a job offer in Miami. They'd pay him twice what he is making annually, as well as pay for up to 30 grand a year for each child's college tuition. My brother is at NYU. I'm about to be in school, too. AND they'd pay for him to commute from here to there, and vice versa. In this economy, you'd have to be retarded to not take that deal. But my mom doesn't want him to take it. She says it's because my brother is just starting high school, and my dad wouldn't be around enough. He's never here anyway, because he takes any excuse he can get to stay away from her dumb ass. He'd have more time with us if he took the job anyway, one week here, one week there., he'd have a whole week with nothing to do but spend time with his kids. This is a no-lose situation. But I think my mom knows that if my dad takes the job, eventually he's going to grow a pair and leave her.
I am so not happy right now.