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So... I've just felt crappy all day long. It's partly due to the hangover but its mostly just due to everyday boredum. On top of that my body just aches all over.
Regaurdless though I've been pretty upbeat.. I took the day off work and spent it on the sofa with my dogs and made some new SG friends. Not a bad day all things considered..

Well finally I had been through enough of the ache and I just decided it was time to goto bed.. But, As I got there "she" called.

She began screaming at me right off the bat, no 'how are you' or even a fucking 'hello'.. just yelling. Basically calling me a loser some more. 30 minutes later of me being as patient as I can as she eventually tells me not to talk to her ever again ever. I say fine.. call her a cunt and hang up the phone (the second sentance she let me get out of my mouth in 30 minutes, no BS).

Its not even funny how often this happens and I don't even care anymore. I usually just make myself some Ramen and sit back and let her throw her little fucking fits.. I spent 2 years living with it I can take 10 minutes on the phone every couple of weeks if it makes her feel better. Ya'know.. better she vent to me then someone who will take it seriously.

Tonight she was just being crazy though and still it progressed from there.

Then she starts with the text messages.. to which I respond immediatly 'If you don't ever want to talk to me again, then grow up and quit sending me messages'.

- Now apparently Im a psycho for calling her out of nowhere and for continuosly sending her text messages... excuse me a "FUCKING PSYCHO".
- Allow me a second to re-itterate, I do not call this girl.. and I only sent her 3 messages to her eight.. All of which along the lines of 'Grow up, if you don't want to talk to me then don't im busy'

Still, tonight Im feelin pretty upbeat.. I really meant it when I said this shit doesn't even phase me anymore. However, the difference tonight, which is why I went through all this, is to say Im done. That is THE last time she talks to me like that.. let alone ever. I think Im changing my number.

That most of my old-friends think Im some stalker who chased her to virginia (meanwhile I haven't been there in 4 years) and stalks her and used to beat her.. this list of BS gets much worse.. it was bad enough but everytime I talk to her she calls them or writes them and tells them some other awful thing i've done, not a one of which has yet to be true.

I'm not without my faults I do know that.. nobody is perfect and my shit does stink. But If Im going to feel guilty for my actions and have to explain myself then they fucking better be real. Im tired of wondering what wonderful lie ill have to talk my way out of next.

ANYWAY.. Im really tired but now I can't sleep. And I don't get tired, I'm up pretty much 20 hours a day (at least) and she ruined that for me too bitch. =P

Oh, some more good news? Its been confirmed that at least three of my friends have HIV. And these people get around with my other friends.. so who knows how bad this has spread.
(not to me, no worries.. Im almost of fucking monk)

Yea.. HI

So did anyone else watch the Vice-Presidential debates? How boring.. Edwards did get some good hits in tonight but Cheney (like I thought) has so much more experience. After awhile I got so fed up of the "You suck" "NO YOU SUCK" BS. and just changed the channel. I'm still voting for Kerry.

Well, I hope everyone has a wonderful time wherever you find yourselves today (or tonight) and I wish all of you the best in the world. Peace and much love.