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Im not even really sure what to say, tonight I just find myself at a loss. So many mixed feeling on so.. so many subjects.

I've tried to write them down but the words are so elusive. I find myself skipping betweens thoughts almost before I can complete them.

A huge one is that I'm lonely. No, don't get me wrong I could be out.. I just don't want to be. I really just want to sit on my sofa eating Ben & Jerry's with someone while I sit in their lap. That really just sounds ideal. Not even a girlfriend just a female companion. Its been to long since Ive had someone like that.

Watching A Nightmare Before Christmas for some reason is amplifying said feelings. Damn you HBO for not playing anything else right now...

I should get some sleepy time in seeing as my sister's pre-wedding family dinner is tommorow and I gotta get all snazzed up and play the good brother.

~ Afterwards I think Im going to Providence to re-pierce my nipple(s).

Side note before the end: hanging out with Conceptor & Granny at Flux and then back at C's house later was alot of fun. Maybe slow moving at times because we had nothing to do but both of them are cool people & I think we kept outselves entertained with our mindless (yet witty) banter. Eventually, if not sooner, we should do it again.


I think tonight Ill end on a Haiku..

Hug, Laugh, Kiss... Pretend
To remember something true
Forever waiting...

Night Boys & Girls, peace