Im not even sure where to begin... Im just so so very tired. Not sleepy the other kind of tired, the one involving Ennui and Despair... the sisters in crime as they would be. Its just so lonely here, and its so far past that beginning stage that its now a sweltering misery that Ive just become accustomed to.
For the last 3 years I've lived with my girlfriend, well 2 girlfriends, one right after another. No I didn't cheat or anything just when girlfriend A moved out Best Friend A moved in for a little to console me and became girlfriend B. But even before that I was living with some friends of mine in Virginia for about 2 1/2 years. And before that some other people in the Rhode Island area. So when you get down to it I haven't 'really' had any time alone since I was about 14. Ive always had someone living with me.
These last couple months being alone I suppose could be considered a good learning experience about myself and who I am.. Ive started getting things done and realizing all the things I like and don't like (not just what Im used to from those around me) but I gotta say, Im tired of learning. I would generally appreciate some human contact other then from people who are already dating.
Oh sure I can go out with any assortment of friends who are already dating but then Im the third wheel. Whats usually worse is when they try to set me up with their other friends... not to mention the last 3 of these were already dating someone. (I was always under the influence that when you set someone up the two people in question are both supposed to be single)
Anyway, Im beginning to ramble and to get off subject so Im going to stop here. If anyone were to of read thise they probally would of stopped second paragraph and if anyone made it through this I apologize for the babble. Im just lonely.
Regaurdless I hope wherever you find yourself tonight that everything is well for you. PEACE
For the last 3 years I've lived with my girlfriend, well 2 girlfriends, one right after another. No I didn't cheat or anything just when girlfriend A moved out Best Friend A moved in for a little to console me and became girlfriend B. But even before that I was living with some friends of mine in Virginia for about 2 1/2 years. And before that some other people in the Rhode Island area. So when you get down to it I haven't 'really' had any time alone since I was about 14. Ive always had someone living with me.
These last couple months being alone I suppose could be considered a good learning experience about myself and who I am.. Ive started getting things done and realizing all the things I like and don't like (not just what Im used to from those around me) but I gotta say, Im tired of learning. I would generally appreciate some human contact other then from people who are already dating.
Oh sure I can go out with any assortment of friends who are already dating but then Im the third wheel. Whats usually worse is when they try to set me up with their other friends... not to mention the last 3 of these were already dating someone. (I was always under the influence that when you set someone up the two people in question are both supposed to be single)
Anyway, Im beginning to ramble and to get off subject so Im going to stop here. If anyone were to of read thise they probally would of stopped second paragraph and if anyone made it through this I apologize for the babble. Im just lonely.
Regaurdless I hope wherever you find yourself tonight that everything is well for you. PEACE