sehkh

first off, everyone welcome Creative girl the the friends list

now moving on to other matters mostly part two of my bitch fest from last week. well SHE was at the club saterday with her friend, the name escapes me. but regardless. oh before i get any further she has not responced to my messages that were now a week old by that point. no text, no voice, no nothing. everyone told me that this would happen. "she will only use you when she needs something" and yeah its true. i promised myself i wouldnt get emotions involved, that i would stay completly detached. so if this was the case who cares i didnt like her anyway you know? but thats far far from the truth. well like billy corgan once said " you know you just cant tell who youll love and who you wont" **note to self go out and re buy the double disk SP cd... for the thrid time and put it on your ipod.** so yeah all this bitching is pointless everything i said could be summed up in one line. I like her she does not like me. typical. blah feels like highschool all over. but anyway no ill will twords her. its not her fault its all mine. and i know my place big time now. i am nothing more then a tool to her... am i fine with this? do i have a choice? does anyone read my crap? these answers and so much more after these messages,

sehkh